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Recently I have been a little more open about this very personal topic and I've gotten to watch God use it to start some amazing conversations... But it's still a little hard. And still a little scary. Here's some background: About two years ago I started having panic attacks randomly. I thought they were solely caffeine induced, but quitting coffee didn't get rid of them. The attacks continued consistently... Some more severe than others. But each and every one ended with me in my room, sitting alone in the dark, stuck in a very dark mental and physical space. They make me feel like I am going to die. This past April I began having panic attacks almost on a daily basis. My extremely patient mamma would sit with me through a lot of them. We went to the doctor and I wore a heart monitor for a brief time this summer, but there were no medical results. Yay God! There is nothing actually medically wrong with me and since summer has started, I've had only two attacks. But anxiety is very real and very powerful. My mind and my body have a lot to fight through and I know the fight isn't over yet... But I know God meets me there every single time. He has brought me so much peace and comfort in the dark and horrific places. He meets us where He brings us. He is not leaving us alone to suffer. He is working in you and through you. There is so much grace and love and glory to be found in something even as scary as a panic attack. This morning in church we heard the message that God sees us, meets us, and loves us even when we are broken, scared, angry, and confused. It can be so hard to trust and have faith. But He is good and there is purpose in the pain. I think that's pretty life changing. Happy Sunday, friends. . β€’ β€’ β€’ πŸ“· - @up.and.to.the.left β€’ #model #portrait #anxiety #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #mentalhealth #photography #canon #downtown #photoshoot #artofvisuals #panicattacks #quote #portraits_ig #whyweshoot #socality #createmoments #citizenfemme #moodygrams #friendsinmyfeed #postthepeople #folkfilm #featurehighlight #mentalhealthawareness #featureme #instagood #instagoodmy

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Summer is coming to a quick end and I can hardly grasp the last wonderful days before school starts. I've been working crazy hours the past couple of weeks and haven't had much time or energy to do some of the things I enjoy doing. I think that's why I dread summer ending. Whatever rare free time I have seems to disappear completely as classes and fall schedules come into place. At the same time though, I'm crazy excited for the semester because Fall is my favorite season, my play starts next month (YAY), and I get to spend most of my days in the city. I guess each season has its ups and downs. Balancing things and time management are just my constant struggles. . [ I am very open to any tips and advice when it comes to time management! How do you lovely people stay organized when schedules get crazy? πŸ€ͺ ] β€’ β€’ β€’ #city #portrait #fall #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #timemanagement #photography #canon #canonohoto #photoshoot #artofvisuals #architechture #quote #portraits_ig #whyweshoot #socality #createmoments #citizenfemme #moodygrams #friendsinmyfeed #postthepeople #folkfilm #featurehighlight #megaphotographers #featureme #instagood #instagoodmyphoto

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There is so much more to people than meets the eye. People are complex. People are weird. And sometimes we do strange things. But in the end, we're all just human. And the mass color palette of personalities, minds from different gardens, and hearts with all kinds of dreams out there in the world... Is the most stunningly beautiful, breathtaking declaration of God's creativity, craftsmanship, and glory that we get to experience, interact with, and LOVE every single day. That's just so freaking cool. Happy Monday, friends. β€’ β€’ β€’ #model #taylorswift #jk #mysis #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #portraitstream #photography #canon #canonphoto #photoshoot #artofvisuals #roadtrip #portraits_ig #whyweshoot #socality #createmoments #citizenfemme #moodygrams #friendsinmyfeed #postthepeople #folkfilm #featurehighlight #featureme #instagood #instagoodmyphoto #blueeyes

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I guess I'm the type of person who goes and goes and goes until they physically drop. I'm one of those crazy extrovert things(I need alllllll of the stimulationπŸŽ‰) and I rarely give myself the time I need to rest, process, and think (not to mention sleep 😴). I'm so in love with life and yet I still forget to stop and smell the roses. I'm so concerned with growth and moving forward that I sometimes neglect things that are really important such as relationships, downtime, family, etc. How do you quiet your mind amidst all of the stress? What are some things you enjoy doing to give yourself some "me" time? I love to do so much that it's hard to do it all. β€’ β€’ β€’ β€’ #flower #floral #weekend #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #portraitstream #photography #canon #canonohoto #photoshoot #artofvisuals #succulents #portraits_ig #whyweshoot #socality #createmoments #citizenfemme #moodygrams #friendsinmyfeed #postthepeople #folkfilm #featurehighlight #featureme #instagood #instagoodmyphoto #naturephotography #aesthetic

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This summer I started working a second job as a pediatric caretaker for special needs kids. It's teaching me so much about the world and how much I take for granted. I have seen God working through some very kind, very gracious, very patient parents. Last night a 5 year old twin girl with severe autism pulled my hands to her cheeks so I was holding her... She's such a raw, beautiful little human who doesn't know that you're supposed to walk on the sidewalk instead of the rocks or that most people don't squeal and giggle with excitement when they see daisies. She's also one of the happiest people I've ever met. I don't know if I would ever call her "disabled". Thought I'd share a bit of that sunshine with you. Never lose your wonder. And be kind. β€’ β€’ β€’ πŸ“· - @christopher_shea β€’ β€’ #model #portrait #specialneedskids #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #mentalhealth #photography #canon #canonohoto #photoshoot #artofvisuals #specialneeds #quote #portraits_ig #whyweshoot #socality #createmoments #citizenfemme #moodygrams #friendsinmyfeed #postthepeople #folkfilm #featurehighlight #megaphotographers #featureme #instagood #instagoodmyphoto

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I've mentioned a couple of times that it's difficult for me to share about myself personally on social media... I guess it feels weird to just talk about myself? But people are magnificent and interesting and unique - so here I am. I will be continuing my college journey in the Fall at a new school and I am beyond excited! The independence is thrilling. I will also be performing in my first professional paid production this Fall. 🎭 This is my dream and it's been the most beautiful adventure getting here. I am honored to be the youngest person hired in the cast and I am STOKED. Along with those I am still pursuing photography, writing, art, reading, dancing, music, working two jobs, and spending time with friends, my person πŸ’™, and family. I guess I'm a little busy. But life is oh so good. Working hard is so worth it. I adore getting to know people, so please please tell me more about yourselves as I continue to share and express myself. Thank you all for following along. πŸ’› β€’ β€’ β€’ #model #portrait #introduction #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #model #photography #canon #canonohoto #photoshoot #artofvisuals #moodygrams #quote #portraits_ig #whyweshoot #socality #createmoments #citizenfemme #moodygrams #friendsinmyfeed #postthepeople #folkfilm #featurehighlight #megaphotographers #featureme #instagood #instagoodmyphoto

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this world may carry on busy and rushed as ever and you may gather questions that have no easy answers, but may you never lose your wonder and the fire that burns deep: to walk through crowded streets and observe the most beautiful and seemingly insignificant things. // @morganharpernichols β€’ β€’ β€’ #model #portrait #mondaymotivation #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #model #photography #canon #canonohoto #photoshoot #artofvisuals #moodygrams #quote #portraits_ig #whyweshoot #socality #createmoments #citizenfemme #moodygrams #friendsinmyfeed #postthepeople #folkfilm #featurehighlight #megaphotographers #featureme #instagood #instagoodmyphoto

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Today was a garden of blessings. β€’ I got a new job. 🌼 β€’ I ran into seven friends today. That's right. Seven! Without planning on it! πŸ’ β€’ There were some good God talks today. 🌻 β€’ I saw a dog in Home Depot. 🌷 Happy Tuesday, friends! β€’ β€’ 🌿 β€’ #visualambassadors #botanicgardens #aesthetic #peoplescreative #peoplescollective #vsco #vscocam #vscomood #flowers #photography #canon #canonphoto #photoshoot #artofvisuals #moodygrams #garden #portraits_ig #floral #socality #createmoments #mood #trending #wonder #postthepeople #model #featurehighlight #travel #featureme #feature #summer

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