These are the #angelcards that were pulled yesterday and they give me so much hope whenever I look at them, and like the last of the card of the spread, I need to remember to keep it in mind - "patience, please". Thank you @cassandramccollom for the much needed insight into my guardian angels and my process of healing and forgiveness.
I've never allowed another person to read my cards but I immediately felt an uncanny connection to this woman when I saw her wearing a large chunk of charoite around her neck and nothing else. (Charoite is my favorite stone for healing the mind and body/feeling inner safety/pushing past tough the times/overcoming my fears and it has been the most important stone I've ever owned since I was only 16y/o and was had my near-death experience.) It was a very special reading for me.
💔💘SEND SOME POSITIVITY MY WAY TODAY PLEASE💘💔 Currently want to do nothing but cry. Fell asleep crying, woke up crying. Some days I really hate myself because I can't help but blame it on my BPD but having BPD is something that idk if I'll ever know how to deal with it. I read books on my condition. I see a regular psychiatrist (and will be finding one as soon as I move, because MENTAL HEALTH AND SELF CARE COMES FIRST). I work on myself as much as I can. But somehow I feel like I've lost myself. My true meaning in life. I know I'm only 22y/o but my brain produces so much anxiety and emotions that I can't even put into words. Maybe it's because I'm going to be officially on my own for the first time in my life in exactly 2 weeks all the way across the country (Central FL - LA... So literally across the country). But I also feel as though I'm not leaving anything positive behind either (besides my mom and a few others, who I know will visit me when they can) So why am I so scared? Is it because the date is coming up soon? I even got my Angel Cards read yesterday by a beautiful card reader and my spread was so amazingly positive and made me feel like 'I CAN FUCKING DO THIS AND ASCEND FROM THIS DARK PLACE IM IN.' I'm going to post my spread in a few minutes.
BUT - if you actually cared enough to read through this post to this point please reach out if you'd like to meet up with me when I move. I already have plans that I've made with beautiful people that I'll be seeing on the other side, but if you live anywhere from southern California to Oregon or even Los Vegas just know I don't mind a drive or meeting halfway. I jusy need to surround myself with people that have the same interests and/or accepting of who I am. Beautiful people with GOOD INTENTIONS please reach out.
Either way I love you guys ahead of time for the love and support I've received on this journey called LIFE. And also my inbox is open to people that are ever feeling overwhelmed, depressed, anxious, experiencing panic attacks, or just feel lost in life.
When ur true wook self comes out so much that u decide u just don't look hardcore n straight edge enough... oh wait thats contradicting isn't it? 😂 Love thy #wook fuck the #straightedge 😇
Here's the rest of the smaller tattoos I got yesterday by ANONYMOUS. Shout out to all my Aquarius' and my Gemini fraaaaans out there - since the Gems are the Aquarius' most compatible and tend to make the best of friends..... Although I've only met 1 Gemini IN PERSON out of the hadfulls that I jusy couldn't get along with.... BUT the odds are in my favor muwahaha and have been ever since. So I love you my Gemini bothers n sisters💘💘💘💘 oh yeah and got 'Saint' and Sinner' on the outsides if my hands as well 😈💀♥️