It's been one year since Calvin and I got married at @astercafe
We have both grown such an incredible amount in this 365 day time span. But I will be the first to tell you how proud I am of my husband. He has accomplished some truly incredible things. He's pushed himself to be a better person, to be a better friend, to be the best husband he can be for the both of us. He has found new passions and loves. His growth as a human inspires me every day to be a better person. He's the best father to my dogter I could ever imagine. (I still think he loves her more than me) it also doesnt hurt that he is the most stunning man I've ever seen (and no I will never stop fangirling over him. Get used to it)
I will always be so thankful to him for being brave enough to tell me he loved me, even though I responded with "I know". So thankful he consistently puts up with my completely exhausted, workaholic self. So thankful that he continues to love me even though sometimes I find it hard to love myself. So thankful that I have someone to laugh and cry with. So thankful that I have this amazing love that I don't deserve. Beyond thankful for our loved ones, new and old.
Neither of us are perfect, but I'll be damned if we aren't perfect for each other.
Cheers to the love of my life, and may I never know a day without you 🥂
Y'all know me. Lets be real about self esteem.
I've been struggling really hard with my body image and personal style lately.
1. Because seasonal depression is the real deal this year.
2. Because I never go shopping and only wear hand me downs from others.
Nothing is more triggering to me than a fitting room. I avoid it at all costs. The last time I went shopping was a year ago. (Im not kidding) this trip, I was on a mission for a pair of jeans. Yesterday I tried on the biggest size of jean available at one of the consignment stores and couldnt get them past my thighs. And that's hard for some of us in a big way.
Though this would be normally devastating to me, my first stop at @bresalempls asked if they could take a pic of my style and I thought that was so so so nice and served as an amazing confidence boost.
These thighs may be large and in charge. And sometimes it takes extra effort to love them. And sometimes I fail. And thats ok too. I'm just here to always be real with yall. Self love is hard sometimes. So hard. And for me, sometimes its a battle. But if I can make one person feel better about their acceptance journey by being real- then damn. It's worth it.
#ootd and we jus opened!!!
Something super exciting is coming to @stellerhairco and let me tell you- the natural light involved is 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻
Stress is the real deal today.
Thanks to @erikairenenash for giving me her old clothes. Bless you.
This year was the most challenging year I've ever experienced.
I planned a wedding, I got married to my bestest friend, I found my rhythm in helping @stellerhairco thrive as business, I've made unbelievably strong friendships with amazing people, I've deepened my relationship with others. I experienced true joy and independence.
But what social media did not see was how my world cracked this year. My world came crashing down and I scrambled to pick up the pieces as they slipped through my fingers. I fought old demons and found new ones. Friends turned their back on me. I cried. I cried so much. But the beauty in this is that I learned what it meant to be vulnerable, what it meant to break. And most wonderful of all, I learned how to borrow strength from my friends and family. I FINALLY learned that it's ok to open up and let people in to love and help you.
Why am I telling you this? Because a lot of the time I think social media is just romanticized bullshit. That I presented you all this image of myself in the best light, even though in a few of these pictures I was falling apart.
Goodbye 2017. I'm thankful for the lessons you taught me. 🍾
Tbt to warm sunshine in Missouri.
And unapologetic cowboy boots and hat.
YOOOOUUUU LIGHT UP MY LIIIIFFFEEEE
Honestly, I'm waiting for our moms to tell us that our birth certificates were faked and we are actually twins.
❌Long Lost Sisters
✔ALL THE ABOVE
Managing a small business is literally the hardest thing ever...
BUT SERIOUSLY! COME TO OUR HOLIDAY PARTY AT @STELLERHAIRCO TOMORROW FROM 12-4!
I CLAIM MY LOTTERY PRIZE OF BEST LIFE
My aesthetic is always a curvier @dollyparton.
Also shout out to @ctwanggg for his shirts that he def doesn't let me borrow 😬
Thanks @erikairenenash for that good good ginger.
Also thank you to snapchat for making my skin look amazing when I'm riddled with hormonal acne.
Also @urbandecaycosmetics naked skin for making me glow as always.