my new trailer mate 😻taking care of non-human animals has always been therapeutic for me. i have a bucketful of issues with the pet trade, but i think cohabiting with other critters can teach us a lot about the interconnectedness of all things, keep us laughing, and provide a sense of love and companionship. my cat, who snuggled me through the deepest darkest parts of my depression, is living with my mom currently because i live in the woods where there are beautiful native birds who were here long before me and my hunter kitty (thanks mom!). i'm very excited to have a new friend to talk to :) #curlyhairedtarantula#arachnid#countryqueers#newfriends#colorfulcurtains#petlove#letsmolt👯
new moon in gemini mañana. the sign of creative manifestation. a perfect time to celebrate one of my nearest and dearest geminis Madi @womandaughter_ who lately has been pouring her creative energy into a fabulous project called @artsnackartsnack , an art vending machine that sells original handmade art all under $20. you can back art snack on kickstarter right now and for the next 12 days!!!! check out their groovy video (link to kickstarter in my bio for the duration of the campaign!) in the twin spirit of gemini, i have chosen some madi + juli twinsies photos for this post. i could go on and on about how much i love her and what an incredible artist she is, but it would never be enough, so this will have to do.
this mornings' full moon has me thinking about my hopes and dreams and creative pursuits [and how long my hair is getting]. my power deck (made by @vanwaring they are truly magical thank you Van!) suggested that i start somewhere, which is a great reminder for me because my anxious brain tends to think in all or nothing terms, like get it all done RIGHT NOW or don't even try. today i'm going to ask my inner acorn for guidance and plant one tiny seed. water it with love. love y'all. #fullmooninsagittarius#startsomewhere#powerdeck#magic#elvishair#goodmorning
this weekend i saw two cottonmouths at work and heard Linkin Park on the radio. #winning
hi friendz. on tuesday morning i hopped in the car, (my mom's car, thanks mom!) said hey to the moon (as depicted in this image, thanks moon!) and now i'm in new york state visiting my dad (thanks dad!). tomorrow i'm driving to boston and there will be some lovely (likely foggy) music being made in my ex-backyard (thanks Leah!) in the evening.
come say hi/bye if you want to! i'm moving away. and it's been so swell. i want to sing to you to say thank you for being so swell.
54 woodlawn st jamaica plain (right by the forrest hills t stop) 8 pm música starts. Nick Pope, Outer States, Holly McGarry of Honeysuckle on the line up. 😽😽😽 #music#hellogoodbye#austintoboston#bostontoaustin#fog#gratitude#daditude
heyyyyy east coast friendz (and all friends everywhere): there's a show gonna happen in my old backyard on saturday may 12, starting round 8 pm. Nick Pope will grace us with his musical talents, as will Outer States (Corey O'Hara, my bff, my matching tattoo, my soul sister) plus me (Juli) on a few tunes, and HOLLY MCGARRY of Honeysuckle doing a solo set (i'm not trying to scream at you with those all caps but i'm so excited). also, i am moving on back to Texas for indefinitely, which really isn't so far away, and you're all invited there too, but i might not see you for a while, so please stop by for a howdy and a high five and a later skater.
this week the universe and i have been talking about brain drugs. psych meds. early in the week i experienced a moment of victory when i woke up and instinctively braced myself for chronic pain and headache and instead found a distinct lack of pain in my body. there was pain. but not the loud constant pain that has become my norm over the last couple of years. in this moment i felt grateful for my recent med change. along with the gratitude came a voice that said "maybe things are turning around, maybe you can start weaning off of all your meds!" yesterday my therapist pointed out what an interesting, contradictory, and common reaction this was - "this is helping so let's get rid of it!" we talked about how meds are often seen as a sign of weakness/poor health instead of symbols of good health/tools in a healthy toolkit. i have struggled for years (and continue to struggle) with the thought that i need antidepressants and mood stabilizers - the thought that i can't just "tough it out" and "figure it out" myself.
today, this advertisement came in the mail and knocked the wind out of me. told me that psychotropic meds are "perverted" and are to blame for gun violence. as if there is not enough stigma and misinformation around mental health already.
there is NOTHING shameful about taking medicine. it does NOT make you weak, and it does NOT mean you are broken. i am going to work harder to remind myself and others of this everyday. i am thankful to have found (with the help of many) a few meds that help me live a life that is true to my values.
feliz día Pachamama! this was an accidental photo i took on a solo backpacking trip. i felt so held by the Texas forests then and now. you are magnificent. also happy b-day @brennandowney this earth and i are so lucky to know you 🤠