karmannwennerlind This morning I woke up at 3am for work. It’s what I do everyday. I teach English to students in China online. ⠀
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My classes ended a half hour earlier than normal. I quickly turned the lights off and crawled back into bed. My 4 month old that I watch was not coming at 6:30 this morning due to the holiday; so I was hopeful to get the chance to sleep in till 7 this morning. ⠀
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My kids played quietly and I woke up at 8. Even though I got to sleep a little longer the bricks that often times weigh heavy on me did not want me to get up. They did not want me to feel motivated. ⠀
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I call my depression bricks because some days I feel like I’m carrying a bag full of them on me. Depression drags me down. It makes me tired, moody, and often times I feel so worthless. ⠀
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It takes everything I have inside to push myself to do things sometimes. One part of me wants to not be like this. It tells me, “Karmann you know you will feel better if you get out of the house. You know you will feel so much happier if you go exercise today.” The other part of me tells me, “Karmann who cares. Just do nothing. You know you don’t want to. Just sit at home. ⠀
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This morning I went back and forth with myself. I pushed through and put my exercise clothes on and I went to my #highfitness class. ⠀
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These women are my #exercisetribe. The women in the front row are all instructors. They each have classes throughout the week at different church buildings of ours throughout the valley. They teach for FREE!⠀
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I’m so thankful for these women. I will never be able to repay them for what they do for me. I am stronger both physically and emotionally because of their selfless service for me and other girls. ⠀
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These women help remove the heavy bricks on me every day. When I can’t make a class I feel it HARD! I’m forever thankful for them. ⠀
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One day when I’m strong enough and I have enough confidence I hope to certify as an instructor. Lol, one day. ⠀
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This journey really takes a toll on our mental health. It’s so important to do something physical even if it’s a walk around the block. ⠀
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What do you love to do to help with your heavy bricks you carry? What is your out to help you? ⠀
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This morning I woke up at 3am for work. It’s what I do everyday. I teach English to students in China online. ⠀ ⠀ My classes ended a half hour earlier than normal. I quickly turned the lights off and crawled back into bed. My 4 month old that I watch was not coming at 6:30 this morning due to the holiday; so I was hopeful to get the chance to sleep in till 7 this morning. ⠀ ⠀ My kids played quietly and I woke up at 8. Even though I got to sleep a little longer the bricks that often times weigh heavy on me did not want me to get up. They did not want me to feel motivated. ⠀ ⠀ I call my depression bricks because some days I feel like I’m carrying a bag full of them on me. Depression drags me down. It makes me tired, moody, and often times I feel so worthless. ⠀ ⠀ It takes everything I have inside to push myself to do things sometimes. One part of me wants to not be like this. It tells me, “Karmann you know you will feel better if you get out of the house. You know you will feel so much happier if you go exercise today.” The other part of me tells me, “Karmann who cares. Just do nothing. You know you don’t want to. Just sit at home. ⠀ ⠀ This morning I went back and forth with myself. I pushed through and put my exercise clothes on and I went to my #highfitness class. ⠀ ⠀ These women are my #exercisetribe. The women in the front row are all instructors. They each have classes throughout the week at different church buildings of ours throughout the valley. They teach for FREE!⠀ ⠀ I’m so thankful for these women. I will never be able to repay them for what they do for me. I am stronger both physically and emotionally because of their selfless service for me and other girls. ⠀ ⠀ These women help remove the heavy bricks on me every day. When I can’t make a class I feel it HARD! I’m forever thankful for them. ⠀ ⠀ One day when I’m strong enough and I have enough confidence I hope to certify as an instructor. Lol, one day. ⠀ ⠀ This journey really takes a toll on our mental health. It’s so important to do something physical even if it’s a walk around the block. ⠀ ⠀ What do you love to do to help with your heavy bricks you carry? What is your out to help you? ⠀ ⠀ ⠀

Comments (45)

karmannwennerlind

karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@highfitnesssam you are so right!!! Our bricks are lighter together!!! Oh how thankful I am for it all!!! Love you friend!! So thankful for you!!!💛💛🌻🌻

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@highfitness_heather you make my Monday. It’s never the same week unless I start it off with you!!! I’m so happy to see you and I love cheering from the back. It was a fun morning and I’m so glad I went! 💛💛🌻🌻Love you!

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@shaylahilsabeck thank you so much!!! you are the cutest!!! I love that you know my gurl Celeste! Thank you again god all these you do! Your words are so true! It’s #whyihigh 🌻🌻💛💛😘😘

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@ctotheleste 😂😂😂 you always make me laugh. Thanks love!!! Love and miss you!!!!

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@robinashley88 I loved seeing you again!!!! It made me so happy!!!! We are in this fight together!!! 🌻🌻😘😘💛💛

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@tj.oswald love being at your class! It makes my Friday!!!!!💛💛

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@kimwennerlind it was a special class because of Veterans Day so it was a little bigger than normal. Normally we don’t have all the instructors either but it is usually well attended. I wish they did it for you out there too. It’s so much fun! Love you!!!!

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@mckay_meadowlane love it girl! Girlfriends do wonders for our souls. I’m so glad you have such a great support system. 😘😘

karmannwennerlind

karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@yuya_2012_ you are so welcome. Hugging you! I wish we could be workout buddies so I could help you get back into the groove. Don’t feel ashamed. It’s so hard. I get that way with my house too. It’s work to just do the bare minimum sometimes. Can I help in anyway? Here for you! Sending love!!!!!💛💛💛

karmannwennerlind

karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@cofertility thank you love!!!! 💛💛

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karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@danigirit it totally is mental more than anything else. I’m glad you have your out for when the bricks get heavy. Sending love!!!!💛💛💛

danigirit

danigirit, 1 month ago

@karmannwennerlind sending you love friend. If I can anything to help you hold up those bricks- I’m here. 💙

brianasbabysteps

brianasbabysteps, 1 month ago

Do you work for VIPKID? I do too!

yuya_2012_

yuya_2012_, 1 month ago

@karmannwennerlind thank you love, hugs to you too and yes I wish we were closer I definitely join the exercise team, it’s amazing what they do. My husband and I having oposite schedules is taking a toll, we used to walk around the park but not anymore. We’ll get something figured soon. ❤️❤️❤️

karmannwennerlind

karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@brianasbabysteps yes!!!! It’s the best most tiring job ever! 😂😂😂

brianasbabysteps

brianasbabysteps, 1 month ago

@karmannwennerlind right! 😂 I can’t make myself get up at 3 to teach at 4. I’m losing an hour of teaching now but I need my sleep!!

alongcamemis

alongcamemis, 1 month ago

@karmannwennerlind Fort Apache ❤️

karmannwennerlind

karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@alongcamemis is he there next Tuesday? We will come!! I can give you a squeeze!!!

karmannwennerlind

karmannwennerlind, 1 month ago

@brianasbabysteps I get up at 3 to teach at 3:30. It’s hard! And....I lost one slot because I don’t teach the 6:30-7 slot the other 6 months of the year so the 5:30-6 slot is empty. It sucks but oh well. I need my sleep too. Starting in January I’ll go back to Tuesday and Thursday off I just need the extra income right now. You@are amazing! Love you do it too!

brianasbabysteps

brianasbabysteps, 1 month ago

@karmannwennerlind oh man so early!! Props to you! I’m only on my 3rd full week but right now I do it everyday but I don’t have another job so it isn’t so bad. I’m only doing it but infertility is expensive 😂 I love meeting others who know my early morning struggles!