A lack of feeling worthy is something I’ve uncovered in my life over the past few years. Through a lot of deep internal work, & the guidance of some amazing teachers near & far, I realized that lack of feeling worthy is what led me to so many painful experiences, like toxic relationships (personal & professional), putting my dreams on the back burner for too long, making unhealthy lifestyle choices, etc. In those moments when I realized it all came from a lack is self love, a lack of feeling worthy, my mind was utterly blown. 🤯
Since realizing this, I’ve been doing a lot of work with the words I AM. Making sure to put conscious, love rooted words after them & although it felt really difficult at first, it opened my eyes. I realized, I had a tendency to call myself awful things, or stupid, or crazy - things I’d never say to others but I said them to myself ALL THE TIME.
Lately, when I feel myself start to follow the words I AM with anything less than love, I pause to forgive myself & reframe it in a way that pours a more love into my subconscious mind.
So yesterday, while I was filling out my application for to study under @ at @.yoga’s teacher training, I felt the pull by the words I AM to go into the direction of I am not good enough. It’s a raw an vulnerable process to put myself out there & apply something so BIG, something my soul has been yearning for.
I realized the feelings of unworthiness were creeping in & stopped writing.I stood up & took a few deep breaths with my hands on my heart & said over & over again I AM WORTHY. (Until I believed it). I brought myself back into a space of love, took a few deep breaths & submitted my application with a heart full of love, worthiness & hope. Of course I then cried, hugged my husband & my dog & smiled in gratitude.
Here’s the thing I realized:
I AM WORTHY:
OF MY GREATEST DREAMS.
OF STUDYING UNDER MY DREAM TEACHERS, IN A COMMUNITY THAT TOUCHED MY HEART SO DEEPLY, ON AN ISLAND I FELL IN LOVE WITH.
OF AMAZING, BREATHTAKING, BEAUTIFUL EXPERIENCES.
The best part is that YOU ARE WORTHY OF YOUR SOULS DESIRES TOO. YOU deserve amazing things-don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, ESP YOURSELF!💖