SET II, pt. I: “After what happened that year, I couldn’t recover from my depression for months. It wasn’t how I wanted our relationship to start, in fear of you having feelings for someone else. Until I found out, I felt like you never truly wanted to be with me, as you continued lusting for others while we were together. I felt insecure, not because of what you did, but the fact you hid things from me to keep me staying – the betrayal. You justified what you did to me with your friends’ opinions which made me feel like I was being too sensitive, but you already knew I wouldn’t have been okay with it. You reassured me it would be different now that we were in a relationship. You promised you’d never hurt me again and things will improve. I believed you. However, I still never felt reassured because you avoided commitment and love, you kept the dating apps for weeks although we’ve been seeing each other, and you still talk about all the attractive people around you. To me, you seemed so uncertain about us and that made me feel as though our relationship was just temporary to you. My love was suppressed, but I kept holding onto the false hope that things would get better for us. But I enjoyed the following days when I saw things actually becoming stable. You finally expressed your love this winter, and I couldn’t ask for anything more. I thought things were going well for us... until I saw your text to him. When I confronted you, you admitted there was attraction and mixed feelings. I’ve felt so much anxiety and stress because I lost someone I loved so much. I didn’t know what to do but to overwhelm you with my hurt feelings, my shattered vision for a future and all the stuff we can do together. So I guess it’s over, I need to stop this pain, I don’t want to be upset by your irresponsible actions. You shouldn’t have promised things you couldn’t do, nor made it a relationship when you weren’t ready for it. Your words of love no longer feel valid to me. It is not my fault to say it, because it’s what you did to me and our relationship. I tried, I loved, I feared to make us apart, but I really have to protect myself now”.