I this happening with Magnus.
I placed my hand on Magnus' hand, which was on my cheek and insisted, "Please..."
"As I have told, I have been having these nightmares and dreams, just today's one didn't make any sense, because I guess someone was there with me, I felt their presence but couldn't see them. It was all very dark and then the pain made me scream." Magnus continued.
"Since when are you having these nightmares?" I asked.
"A month, I think. I don't remember when they started, but I hadn't had any when I was on bed rest due to my shoulder. But then, as soon as I started going to office, they all started again." Magnus said.
So, the nightmares must have started after I had met Magnus the first day and they stopped when I didn't meet him for the week I was in London and now I am back and they came back too.
I have to take my exit from his life, at least until doctors don't give me a green flag.
I won't come near him again, I won't meet him again, until them.
But I had tonight.
"Can I hold you, tonight?" I had to hold him.
Magnus just nodded his head. "Thank you." I said.
Magnus removed the pillows between us, laid down, and I followed.
Magnus saw with his face towards me.
But I turned him on the other side, covered us with the duvet, pressed myself to Magnus, spooning him from behind.
This might be the most I will get in the coming months.
Magnus then put his hand on arm as if to give me assurance that he was fine, just that I knew better.
Magnus slept after some minutes, while I had my nightmares to deal with.
At probably 6:30 am, I went to the bathroom and washed my face.
It's so silly sometimes, you plan something and it just go downhill.
I came back and saw Magnus sleeping peacefully.
'You will be sleeping peacefully, every night from now, hun.'
Running a hand through his hair, I pressed a kiss on his cheek.
Then, spooning Magnus, I closed my eyes.
When I woke up, it was 8:15, Magnus wasn't in bed.
Of course, he had office.
I went out of the room, searching for him.
But as soon as he saw me, he spit whatever he was having and started laughing.