I think the main reason I love having a buzz cut is legit the fact that it feels like a middle finger to society. There's this unspoken rule that long, luxurious hair is a woman's glory. The trope of a woman being stripped of her hair and therefore losing her value is infuriating. The thought that a woman has to fit certain criteria to be beautiful - read: valuable - kinda pisses me off.
Now, I'm not picking on anyone, I promise. Y'all should do with your body whatever you wanna do - whatever makes you feel beautiful. And I don't intrinsically hate people who fit the stereotype of the ideal woman. They are beautiful too. It's just not for me.
For me, I'm like fuck all that being beautiful shit, I want to look brutal. I love the aesthetic of industrial shit surrounded and overtaken by nature, that post-apocalyptic feel. I want to be that. I want people to see me as strong, hard, fierce. I want men to look at me not as a woman but as competition. I want to look on the outside like I feel on the inside, or I wouldn't have all these tattoos and wear what I do and shave my head. I'm tough, I'm strong, I'm vicious, I've seen some shit. I can't pretend to be a pretty girl when I'm the human equivalent of an old farm truck - busted up but sturdy enough to go through almost anything, and only adored by a select few who understand.
I like that snap judgment where people write me off as unattractive, because it gives me a chance to know them, not to know the side of them that only wants to impress.
I probably am going to try to let the chia pet on my head grow out a bit, out of curiosity. I haven't had natural hair in probably a decade at least and I want to see how gray I've gotten. Chances are though I'll go back to keeping it like this, because I like myself most this way, and that's what's most important ♥