What if I fail? Wait, but what if I fly?
Things were falling apart. I had just come out of a long term relationship. I was unhappy and unfulfilled at my job. My life was stagnant, my inner world was a mix of a few highs and a load of lows. Slowly, I felt pushed to the edge. I had to change the course of my life to create a different reality.
For as long as I can remember, when I was a child, I would daydream about learning foreign languages and cultures. The idea of speaking English fluently and live in a faraway country was captivating me. Perhaps I aspired to escape the flat land, gloomy sky of the north of France. One day, it all came back to me. I was in my mid 20's my coworker told me about his niece living in Australia on a working holiday visa and we went on talking about this amazing country that I knew so little at that time. I was so intrigued by this faraway land, light years away from the countryside where I grew up.
I felt an immense pull towards this destination, and before I realized it I had made the decision to go explore this immense territory.
I started to dig information day and night about the country and within 2 weeks, I was ready to embark on the adventure - almost everything was sorted out - place to live, visa, plane ticket etc.
I was excited for a fresh new beginning, albeit uncertain and dubious about what the year would hold.
What if I fail? How am I going to live, travel, make money? I don't even know english that well! …. the ramblings of my mind went on. My fears and insecurities were surfacing. Yet I was drawn to the massive feelings of excitement that was vibrating strongly inside of me. There was no turning back. I was ready for a massive shift.
I worked long hours, had two jobs and saved money to get ready for the unforeseeable venture.
2 months later, there I was stepping into the depth of my existence, in the middle of the Australian desert.
This was 9 years ago.
The amount of challenges and experiences I gained from this conversation has shaped my life to an extent that I cannot express into words. It all start with a thought, a tiny little step. (to be continued in next post) ⋆