“We fall so that we can learn to pick ourselves up. Rise.
Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but rising every time we fall.” -Batman
To be honest? This year has been hell. I have been to the absolute bottom and back again. I have faced some of my absolute lowest of lows. I have fought my way back from next to nothing. I have cried many nights alone. Spent hours just driving back roads and listening to music to clear my mind. I have made big steps. Some in the right direction, some in the wrong. I am owning me. The process to taking back my life and my happiness has been one hell of a ride. I have had moments, months even, of sitting in solitude hating myself for everything I’ve put myself through. I have been through dark days and even worse nights.
But I am learning to let go. I am growing. I am learning to love my self. Ever so slowly, but learning nonetheless. I am learning how to be happy again. How to not force a laugh or a smile. How to be honest when things aren’t okay. I am starting a journey to loving me. I have been fortunate enough to have a handful of people who have walked through the fire with me, and for that, I am forever grateful. I am figuring things out and I’ll continue to make mistakes, I’m far from perfect. But most importantly, I am learning to rise above the hand I’ve been dealt and the circumstances that have been thrown my way. I’m stronger now more than I ever was.
I. Am. Rising.