If you had told me I would be up at 5:30am eating my small pre workout fuel, getting dressed silently in a hotel bathroom, sneaking out of the bed and the door like a ninja to workout while on vacation 3 years ago? I would have laughed out loud. For like 10 minutes. Legit. Maybe even snorted. 😂😜🙋♀
But what I do know??? I would have felt it. I will never forget how I felt on those days i would say “oh tomorrow I will do it”. “I deserve this, I work so much”. And that next day, turned into 2 days and well, many of you can relate. .
What I am learning daily. And what I do know? .
For a fact?? I am not doing this for the likes. Not for him, not for her, not even for my littles (yes, many reasons why this is good for them - but I am not doing this for them persay). I am not doing this for anyone else. I am not doing this to fit into a bikini, or to be able to eat whatever I want (ps. Doesn’t work that way). I am not working on my choices, or for my strength for anyone other than me. .
Eyes down. In my lane. .
You know why???? I spent years filling everyone else’s cup before my own. I spent years telling myself I wasn’t a morning person. I could never have abs. I am missing a rib blah, blah, blah. Spent time getting caught in the comparison game. Not believing in myself that I could build a multiple six figure self employed income. .
It wasn’t that I wasn’t a morning person. Is what that I hadn’t developed the HABIT of being a morning person. It wasn’t that I couldn’t be an entrepreneur, I just didn’t know how. .
3 years ago? I also hadn’t found my tribe. I hadn’t set goals that FORCED me to grow. I didn’t value that my own eyes and reflection on my daily decisions were enough to be proud or disappointed - and to reflect with LOVE and what lessons did I learn today that either served me? Or did not serve me?
So. I had to be the change.
Thomas Edison said “if people actually worked to their capacity, they would astound themselves”. I am working on astounding myself daily. I am doing this for me.
And? I couldn’t do that alone. This momma needs a village #swipeleft
But, don’t we all??? .