Lovely Facebook reminded me of this photo.
This photo is two-faced. You know... on the front it looks like one thing but on the back it’s a completely different thing. What you probably see are three friends posing back in 2012 when posing was thing & not candids. 📷 that’s totally true. We were. Friends, best friends, teammates, posing. But TODAY, years later, I still vividly remember taking this photo. I remember posting this photo on facebook (back before insta was a thing) & you know what I was thinking ??? That girl on the left is was thinking: “suck your gut in, stand tall, shoulders back, hand on hip, chin level to the floor, try to look pretty because your the ugliest of the three” 😭 Thinking about it now makes me so upset. I’m sitting here trying not to cry. How could a girl ever say that to herself ? Ever think that ? I would skip meals, lie & say I wasn’t hungry... looking at it now, when it popped up in my memories, I thought “wow I was thin. Why did I hate myself ?” I remember lying about my weight BACK THEN! I always said 5lbs less than I was. But why? TODAY it’s my mission to empower other women to change their game & change their mindset. Because I’ve been there. & yes, honest to the heavens, something i have “fat days” & i catch myself telling the inner me to “suck your gut in” [can you relate?] I’m still working on myself, I’m not perfect & I don’t try to be 🤫 I’m H U M A N. with issues. with problems. with thoughts. on a mission. & that’s all I can ever hope to do is to change another woman’s thinking when she looks at herself in the mirror.