Many people don't see what goes on behind the scenes in my life. Most days I do my best to get all the housework done and actually have a decent quality of life. But to have that decent quality of life, I have to take my medications religiously. If I don't take my medications, I'm an anxious, depressed, blubbering mess because of past traumas. I'm a little bit broken but with the right medication and the help I need, I'm getting my life back. I may be disabled, I may feel a little poorly most days but I do everything I need to to live my life to it's potential. 💕 I love streaming, I love gaming, I really enjoy my life, but people see the smile and don't see what goes on behind closed doors. @ is my rock, I can't imagine life without him. He's seen me at my worst and he loves me more than anyone. I don't have a relationship with my parents for reasons I have only disclosed on my tumblr. I only have him. He's with me every day and he helps me more than anything. I absolutely adore him and he makes me so happy, and makes each day worth living. Behind the cracks and the shattered pieces of my battered self, he's seen the good in me. The loving, the happy and the bubbly person he fell in love with from day one. I'm getting by, and I'm doing a lot better now than I was doing 7/8 months ago.
HELL, I never expected to be living this life. I'd be in my grave early if my life hadn't gone the way it has now. That's how seriously bad my physical and mental health has been. I have my moments but right now, I'm ok. I'm hurting yes, I'm broken yes, I'm exhausted every single day but I still manage to hold myself together even when things have been stressful, like today. ❤️ Be strong. Things will get better.