#triggerwarning #TW So I suffered with anorexia pretty badly for a big chunk of my life and I’m still trying to completely cut it out, but ya know I think you just learn to live with it eventually, which I’m getting better at!!! I don’t have that many unhealthy eating habits anymore, and I know that I deserve to eat.
The entire time I was really struggling with anorexia, I was a very negative thinker. I didn’t think I was good enough, I was pretty enough, I was cool enough, etc etc. but now I know my worth.
I’m currently trying to reach 100 pounds and as you can tell from the photos, I’ve made some progress!!! I mean the lighting and angle is different but there’s still a difference in my size and I can feel it personally sooo... The first photo was from the beginning of college, and that probably wasn’t even the worse shape I was in. High school was SO bad. People would literally make jokes about my name because it’s close to “anorexia”. I’ve had people laugh at me for how skinny I was and how it correlated to my name.
But I’m close to 100 pounds now and I’m trying to be okay with that. It’s difficult, but my body looks healthier and feels way better. I know I can overcome this, and it gets easier knowing that I’m still really hot with thicker thighs and a chubbier belly.
The start of all this was because of my negative thinking habits, then it progressed to self image problems, and once I had reached the end of high school/beginning of college, I actually loved how skinny I was. I was obsessed with wrapping my hands around my thighs and fitting double 0 pants and XS panties. I just wanted to keep getting smaller and smaller.
But fuck that. My hair is flourishing, my nails are growing, I am so much happier now. Sometimes my thighs touch and it makes me self conscious and sad but who cares!!!!! THIGH GAPS DONT DO SHIT FOR YOU.
The end(: thanks for listening
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