Going through my devotional this morning, and came across Psalm 27. I had written out this verse in the margins of my journaling Bible (gift from my mom for my baptism ♥️), after our third miscarriage, as a reminder to be patient in all affliction, and to keep my heart and eyes on Him through it all. 💙
This passage gave me so much strength when I felt weak. Knowing that He would give me the strength to carry on, and hope again. That He would give me the courage I needed to take on the next day. 💪🏻 .
It’s so interesting to me that the passage reads, “LET your heart take courage” - so true! How often do we simply need to ALLOW ourselves that freedom, or to let go of the tense, balled up feelings that are holding us back? Jesus wants us to live in freedom - in the freedom He gives - and to really surrender to Him. We can get so caught up in our own world, so caught up in holding our feelings hostage, being too proud to say “I need help”, or “I’m sorry”, or “I love you”. LET your heart take courage is freedom to me, and has been throughout our pregnancy. To ALLOW my heart to trust that things would be okay - that this pregnancy would come full term... was actually more difficult than just balling up and thinking the worst. .
Sharing this on my heart today as it is simply amazing to me to see this piece come full circle. From leaning on this verse when it was hard to see hope, impossible to understand why we lost another baby, and fear of never getting pregnant again as well as fear of getting pregnant again...
to today... close to 40 weeks pregnant, sitting on a patio at my favourite lil spot, baby kicking around, with the sun shining. .
I feel so grateful to be in the season of renewal and answered prayers. To have this day - today - to use reflecting on our journey and how good God is and has been. To be thankful for our prayer warriors. And to eagerly anticipate this babe’s arrival to our arms. Wow. 🌈 .
A rainbow follows a storm, symbolizing hope of what’s to come. Our rainbow is here with us, and has definitely been our symbol of hope for the future. I also feel that this verse was my hope while we waited for our rainbow - knowing to wait on Him...