hiii. so i haven’t been to school actually. i tried to go but i don’t know, i just get really anxious. i’ve been using my lack of sleep as an excuse but tomorrow my mom is forcing me to go. i just don’t feel like i wanna see everyone again. i just feel like staying in my room for the next 10 years. and if i go back to school, i probably won’t be able to understand anything during my classes. god i’m a mess again :( and i know i’ll probably be alone at school. i usually always hang out with my best friend but i feel like we’re really distant these days. she started hanging out with other people, that’s really great for her though. i mean she was the only person i really felt comfortable with but like i won’t try to stop her from being friends with other people. that’s just dumb. i don’t know, i just feel like avoiding everyone though. i’m so confused about everything right now.