Saturday early morning at around 12:30am on September 1st of 2018 your warm, sturdy and most beautiful body left my arms. Your soul took its journey to the rainbows... And while I know it was your time to evolve, it is difficult being in this space without you..
Not being able to look into your eyes, to talk to you, to connect with you like only we can, to kiss you, to hold you, to squeeze you, to hug you, to spoon you, to smell you, to breathe you in - filling my lungs with you.. To place your footsies and paws under my nose and draw in your yummy popcorn scent. To stroke your pads on the sides of my nose and to kiss them time and time again. To press your precious body against mine, holding your head gently and keeping my lips on your stunning head, kissing you a thousand times. The pain and missing you is excruciating and I now know how silence can be deafening...
I know without any doubt that I have loved you for a thousand years, and that I'll love you for a thousand more... to the moon and back, and back again a million times..
- Thank you for watching over your little sister Karli. I hope you come to her always in her sleep. Thank you for sending us Belle. I know it was all you. - And most of all, thank you from the deepest space of my heart for everything you have given me, for all that you are. - All the love you taught me. And showing me how to make my needs and wishes a priority - although I am still working on that.. - I promise you I'll get there.
Thank you for the signs you send me, letting me know you are with me. Please send me as many as you can. I need them.
Please, please my dearest mama Spice wait for me. I'll find you. - please find me when I cross over to your side.
You are my one and only soulmate. Mama Spice. ❤️