This last week has been a roller coaster. Since I have started the supplements to cure my #lymes, I have felt so much better. The brain fog is gone, I have energy, and I don’t hurt as much. Eating wrong foods don’t knock me out for the day, and I am not hungry all the time. .
Being more aware though, has made me more aware of where I’m at mentally. This week was realizing I don’t know if what I want is truly what I want, or if I’m making someone else’s dream my own.
It’s terrifying to think that you don’t even know who you are. Sure I know the basics, like my favorite color, but beyond that I can’t tell you what makes me, me. .
Slowly these answers come, but it will take time. In the meantime though, I rely on God to get me to where I need to be. His goodness and mercy are the only things that have kept me going during this dark time.
#courageousyou #scapegoatchild #narcissticparent #childhoodabuse #abuserecovery #godwillmakeaway