We tramped through snow 3 feet deep to get here, with crampons and ice axes to help us through difficult sections. My legs were wrecked as it was amongst the hardest hikes i have ever done due to the conditions. It may have been spring but it very much felt like winter in this alpine wilderness. Doesnt help that the one time we go to a breakfast buffet it was before this beast😂. The first half of this hike is stairs for about 2 hours and then it turns into a mountain face of snow. The pack felt much too snug on my full belly and perhaps my legs were not prepared for what was to come.
Going up I got so exhausted that all my mimd could focus on was one step at the time. Nothing mattered but getting up and how could it because thats all i had the energy for. It was frustrating because I kept sliding through the snow and having to get out of holes created by my own feet, one step was followed by the effort of getting out of 3 feet of thick snow. Sometimes Id count as little as 10 steps at a time and then stop again, out of breath and feeling nearly dead. But i was committed and I knew I would get up there even if it took all day.
I tried really hard to get up that mountain, and it felt like it took forever but once i got up there I was showered with a sense of peace. My mind which had beem forced to be empty during the challenging tramp suddenly found itself empty of any mental clutter and without duty. It was free. I just fell into the moment without that constant mental narrative, finally a calm mind atuned in a remarkable place. I didnt know this could be experienced through a physical hardship like so and I felt accomplished because my body had conquered, not the mountain but itself.
That evening I walked away from a hut towards a rock that looked like a seat in a grand ampitheater. I listened for and sometimes was able to watch avalanches crash in the distance as the sun hide behind the mountains. I was fully there because there was no where better to be. Props to my body for haulling ass to get my here! The sunset/sunset duo were a treat.