I was going to a doctor who helped me. He talked over anxiety and ADD with me and was one of the first people to ever make me feel like I am a person with symptoms, not symptoms trying to ‘people.’ Then the practice was bought out, he left, and I called to schedule an appointment to have my meds renewed and they informed me he’d quit weeks ago and they were just moving his patients to a new doctor (without informing me that she was a holistic dr). So I showed up to a practice I’d been going to for 2 years, was asked to fill out a humiliating survey that completely undermined what happens to my brain on a daily basis (add up the totals, really?), then when the Dr. walked in, she sat her laptop on top of it and didn’t even look at it. She lied to me about the meds I was on, then tried to take me off of them, had me blood-tested for unnecessary vitamin deficiencies, then made me schedule a follow up appointment for two weeks - which I’ve since cancelled to avoid an unnecessary copay for another office visit while I’m looking for a doctor who is willing to help me. .
I’m not sure what the point of this post is beyond the fact that I want to share that these experiences happen. That while I might be in a place where I don’t feel like taking amazing care of myself, I won’t succumb to the ways I’ve been jerked around by a health care system that forgot about the ‘care’ part. .
I’m not going to give up on advocating for myself after it taking 29 years to find someone who really listened to me. Thank you Mary Dolan and Bruce Lanum for changing my life and helping me believe in medicine. Thank you Zaleh Parham for teaching me how to stand up for the power I have to know what’s the best for me.