I didn't think I would ever share this. I wanted to keep this private, as it's somewhat embarrassing and still fresh and very new to me.
For years, I've been thru high highs and extremely low lows. Little did I know that I would soon be diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder.
Choosing to share this does not mean I am looking for attention or sympathy. I share strictly for those who are afraid to seek help or are confused by symptoms they are experiencing.
There are two types of Bipolar. There is Bipolar I, which is extreme mania and depression. They are basically at the same level. Then there's Bipolar II (me), which is hypomania (still having manic episodes but not too extreme) and extreme depression. Basically the lows are way, way worse than the mania. Not understanding symptoms and going thru life without proper help can be devastating. Before I knew exactly what was going on, I was so angry and confused for feeling the way I did (and still do). I wanted an explanation for the terrible pain I was experiencing. I am currently working with a psychologist and psychiatrist for therapy and medication.
I want to mention the stereotypes of bipolar.... it is NOT random mood swings. It isn't a shift that happens daily or more frequently. My mania lasts a few weeks as does my depression. Being Bipolar II, the depression affects me more than the mania. Some days I can barely get out of bed and go to work. When someone is experiencing this, they cannot simply shake it off and "just get up". It is not that simple.
Mental health is extremely important!! It affects us the same amount, possibly more, than most typical physical health issues. I know this post is all over the place and I have so much more to say, but my main message that I want to get out is to not be embarrassed by a diagnosis, going to therapy, or taking medication to feel "normal". We have to do what's best for us!!