Good days, bad days....
I’m in a shitty mood today, feeling a full grunt of doubt, and heaviness.... my world is foggy.
Today is a reminder that life forever challenges who I think I am, my , my choices, my emotions, my , the way I thrive, or dive.....that life really is .
I could write a super , inspiring post in the hope of feeling better, or I could seek externally....I know all the quick fixes.
I’ve been here before and a larger part of me knows that embracing the beauty in witnessing not only the great but also the much lesser than great moments is of greatest reward, maybe the key to acknowledging my deep attachments to either of the inevitable polarities in this life.
Experience tells me that stepping up to a full of my presence in times of turmoil allows me to gauge where I authentically sit emotionally and prompts me to and to a into my perceived .
The big question may be:
How does one retain and open hearted-ness when closing down could well be the quick-fix , no-pain-now, no-one-will-know- method of choice....the often chosen high road.
It’s never easy, evolving through life, feeling the inescapable elements of ecstatic and magic Life, worlds with the kind of Love only fairy dust could possibly create, but also the gloomy shadows of alike..... I find rising in this moment, as I reconnect to my chosen methods of mustering peace, and .
I know these are the times i feel most alive, most magnetic and driven, open to my self healing abilities....
These are the times I seek my raw nature and thrive again..... Sometimes , even spiritual death, awakens a powerful of strength and a primal yearning for growth and aliveness; this is where Love creeps in a little more.
I could always hide in assumed positivity, but spiritual growth demands its place on every level.
Authenticity is not always pleasant so sometimes I put on a mask and I smile.
Today is not that day....
Today was a shit day, in a beautiful kind of way.
Today I know myself a little more.
Happy Sunday ❤️😊🙏