I've been trying to post when something feels significant. This feels right to share. I've only posted about it once, so here it goes. I am dyslexic. In most cases it is not a big deal for me, however it can make learning step oriented processes quickly very challenging. As a kid, I would always stand toward the middle or back of the line in soccer drills so I could have more time to process and watch what we had to do. I'd have to concentrate extra hard not just to perform well in the drill but to go the correct direction! I figured it out because that's what we do when we love something; we figure it out.
Having this challenging learning process did/has/and sometimes still does scare me away from trying new things in my life.
However, As I've gotten older and more used to falling on my face and failing first, second and third attempts on things my dylexia doesn't affect, it's been easier to have the courage to try new things that would have been too terrifying for me before; For that reason, I'm so happy to have had so much experience failing.
Today in barre3 class my dylexia was on point. I mean it wasn't fucking around. I'd have to pause multiple times continue to rewatch the movement and sometimes not get it right until the very last round.
It's worse when I'm mentally stressed. And the truth is, I didn't realize how mentally stressed I was until my dyslexic brain told me so. So again, what has presented in many cases as burden in my life turned into a gift. It brought me awareness. I kept going in class. I was patient with myself, compassionate, yet still determined. You see I (we) can be all these things . And maybe just maybe, thats why the universe/God made me (us) this way.
So let me close with this.
Being dyslexic perfectionist is no way to live. Being ashamed of any of your innate or external challenges in no way to live.
Let Acceptance, love, courage be our foundation on this journey full of blessed failures. And let's see what happens ✨🙏♥️. XOXO
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