I had this little baby shark a titch over a year ago. Which means slightly over a year ago when I was still full on pregnant with him, I weighed 20 pounds less than I do now. That can be a lot to take in. This is the heaviest I have ever been in my entire life, including being 9 months pregnant. That used to be something that would have knocked me off my feet and made me hide and not want to live life. But here's the thing about our bodies or our looks in general, they don't take away from the fact that I am a mom, a wife, a friend, a daughter, and so many more roles. And it definitely doesn't mean life stops happening and time stands still and waits for you to achieve what you finally think will make you happy. Over the past 6 months I have been working vigilantly to relearn a lot of basic behaviors and thought processes. Here are a few things I've learned:
1- Fun filled moments with loved ones, adventures by yourself or with those you treasure deserve to have you in them. YOU deserve to be a part of life and ENJOYING it, whether you have abs for days and seemingly no body fat or you have more cellulite and stretch marks than hairs on your head! You deserve to enjoy life now, unashamed, and not putting in on hold once you "lose a little weight".
2 - We live in a world that shows us the 'desired' body type all.the.time., we've seen it since we were younger than young, with dolls, TV, ads, errrywhere!! But that's not all bodies, and most of us weren't meant to live in those bodies. And that's OKAY! Glorious even! How drab a world if we all looked alike?! But because we live in a time where all signs point to being smaller, we think that's the ultimate goal. You are not more of a person because you take up less space. We are all worth more than that and have so much more in life to focus on than restricting calories, numbers on a scale, or time put in on the treadmill. So, while I know my numbers, I know how different they are than years past, I also know that my family deserves to have me whole heartedly involved and unabashedly unafraid to play, try new things, and live life now....not 5, 10, 15, 75 pounds from now.