I literally spent ALL day here yesterday and today. I’m doing a fast so no need to get food or prepare food, clean up or anything else. All day to myself. Relaxed. Meditated. Read. Listened to music. Talked to my family. More music. More meditation. More relaxation. Drew. Walked around. Layed on the sand. It’s so interesting to see the parts of me that feel like I don’t deserve to enjoy this. Like I don’t deserve this lifestyle and this adventure. I can tell you anything and try to sound all wise and shit but to be honest with you, even after years of inner work and self love, there are parts of me that really struggle with unworthiness. And I’m not ashamed of it anymore. I’m a human being. I have feelings. I go through emotional roller coasters sometimes. And I’m ok with that. I welcome that. I honor that. To heal whatever comes up it’s better to relax, breathe, welcome it, and show youself that regardless of how unworthy you may feel at the moment, you can still love you for who and how you are.
It’s easy to talk about self love. It’s another thing to actually show ourselves that love. Step by step. Be gentle with yourself. Don’t feel bad for the times when you can’t. It’s all part of the beautiful journey which someday you’ll look back and be grateful for all of it. You are a gift. And it’s ok to acknowledge that. It’s ok to be a receiver of your own love. It’s ok to love yourself like you love those you care about. It’s ok to love yourself the way you’ve always wanted to be loved 😊🙏🏽❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️