Confession time 😬
Lately I’ve been thinking about how I struggle with having an “all or nothing” mentality. I noticed it this week when I missed a few workout days due to having sick kids, so I got discouraged and started having a “who cares” attitude towards my diet and got totally off course with my eating (low protein/high carbs-exact opposite of how I normally eat). I started beating myself up about this, but I’m really making an effort to not go that route anymore and to start being kinder to myself and getting to the root of my “problems” instead of feeling like a failure and ask myself WHY I do what I do.
I realized that fitness is truly my medicine. It’s what gives me energy, boosts my mood, makes me feel accomplished, is my “meditation”, something that connects me to the present moment and serves as a mindfulness activity when I am struggling with anxiety.
When I don’t workout, I am not myself. I have always been this way. When I don’t workout, I start losing motivation and drive in life. I start bringing back old unhealthy habits. I start going too much in my head and forgetting why life is so amazing. I can walk into the gym a nervous wreck confused about my life, my purpose, my goals and when I walk out, everything makes sense again. This is why fitness is a lifestyle for me.
So, it’s okay that I crumble a little bit when I can’t hit the gym. I’m learning to be kind to myself and speak softly about the things I don’t understand.
The gym is my rock right now, in the hardest season of my life and it’s OKAY. I’m not obsessed. I’m not having a “all or nothing” mentality. I’m coping and learning and growing and it’s OKAY.
Let’s try to stop labeling ourselves and our problems and start doing more of what we LOVE, what lights a fire in us, what motivates us, what makes us open our eyes in the morning excited for life 💕💕