It is SO IMPORTANT! 🎨🎤🎶🎹💕➰✨
A year ago, right now on the road - somewhere between mount Shasta and SF, i let all the plates drop.
I stopped spinning them.
This was in meditation, but i actively held myself back from them all, and watched them fall to the floor.
Some broke. Others did a little wobbly-spin until centering and ultimately, stopping. (I practice a lot of visualization meditation.) I cried.
It was difficult to feel into the “failure”. What I’m trying to create doesn’t have a solid path laid before it for me to follow. I have to expect things to not work when I’m figuring them out. Or become more like Nikola Tesla, and see the perfect vision in my head before putting into tangible form 🤔 but i digress.
Flash forward to now, and i have so much more clarity. So much vision, with so much work ahead of me - and for the first time, that excites me.
I have slowly been recollecting my skills and hobbies and services - rethinking and reorganizing, as one may do during a retrograde period 😉 retrying, reconnecting, and reintroducing (reintroduction later ☺️)... WHAT I’m trying to say, and why the colored pencils, is that daily creative self-expression is important for our health and happiness. No matter what form it takes. Follow the creativity.
Music has long been one of my tools for this, but it happens to be one of the last unbroken plates I am picking back up 🤷♀️... i just haven’t been playing 💔. A large part of that breaks my heart, and another part is so grateful for the distance and opportunity to step back and look at the big picture.
I “lost” music once before.
After a three-year break, it came back stronger, and through forms i had maybe once imagined, but certainly didn’t think would actually come to be.
Now, in this current break, I have found drawing and hand-knotting taking place of music, and although not in the same way, they satiate my creative urges.
They don’t cover all the bases that singing, along with the vibration of my ukulele on my body, harmonizing, creating a flow of multi-toned beauty does 😍, but they have found their way into other places in my brain, and other parts of my soul.