🌟Mama Panda Post🌟
Not going to lie, I did a long, meaningful post to accompany this clip of Aunt Viv from the but Instagram decided to crash and delete it all 😫. Let's try again!
I was talking about how my mum enrolled my sister and I to a performing arts school when I was 7 (til our teens). That we'd go every Saturday to learn Filipino cultural dances as well as contemporary, tap, ballet and even Hawaiian 🌺. We also did singing and acting. My fave class was "modern" - aka hip-hop, the cool and fun class. 🤓. DANCE: A form of self expression that has similar effect to as art 🎨 and music.
I miss dancing. THAT was a proper hobby for me -- NOT my business - Three Little Pandas, which my therapist referred to it as during our session earlier this week. 🤔💭... In saying that, I can see why she may think of it as a hobby. I enjoy and do it in my spare time BUT I also created it to make a living for my family. People forget that ☹️. Apart from the odd birthday, wedding, Christening celebration it is very rare that I get to go out socially without the Littles . Very rarely do I get to properly focus on my 4th baby/job even - NOTE: I do important work when they're asleep or at school so I can't be distracted.
I feel like the D word is looming where I know anxiety definitely is. - the reason I was referred to a new therapist in the first place.
What I've learnt from this week's session however is that I need to be more selfish and less critical (also need to worry less)... SO, from now on I'm going to make a conscious effort to say "no" to people (accordingly of course) (sorry 🙈). I miss dance so I will start doing that again, I miss painting so I will start making time and space for it, I miss learning new things so I will try to learn all the things.
If you are in this funky position/stage in life feel free to holla at me 😘*hug.
I wanted to update our blog today on the site but my laptop is frustrating me (needs updating) so I started by saying NO to that 🤷♀️🤓. You may see me posting more "emotional" or "everyday" kind of posts on here as a result so give me a nudge if you hate or love them please 🙈🤣. THE END. 🌻