I am incredibly proud of this video. It’s just simple day to day training footage, but it shows me so much more about myself than a one max rep ever has. Of course the platform PR is exhilarating, but the reason it is so emotionally charged is because only YOU know the years of suffering and persistence that was required for that one moment in time.
I see myself in these videos, resilient, pushing forward, stronger and bursting with love for life and others, embracing the light and embracing my own decades of darkness. I have uncovered a part of myself that is darker than I ever knew it could be- but I have looked my shadow in the eyes at her most enraged place, her most broken place, her most fearful and volatile place- and I am completely at peace with the human that I am, good and bad. I have also acknowledged the errors and necessary growth for the person that I currently am and have yet to become.
No longer will I tolerate mediocrity of any type in my life, and that includes who I choose to surround myself with.
Dream big, be honest, work hard. Be a good fucking human. If you cannot do these simple things, you will be welcome to none of my energy.
Moving across the country completely alone is fucking terrifying, but I know that if I do not follow my dreams, I will die with regret.
All of the adults in my life that were critical of this dreaming child, you were right- I’ve got my head in the clouds. I am fucking weird and different. Stubborn, hardheaded, unwilling to settle. A bitch. A freak.
I have said that my life will truly begin at thirty years old for the past year, and that prophecy is fulfilling itself right on schedule. I do not fear thirty as I feared twenty-five. In fact, I welcome it.
I’m ready to risk it all. I have nothing to lose except my own life, and my life has no meaning if I am not living a life that brings me happiness and fulfillment- period.