tb to those long perfect summer hiking days ⛰
A thought that’s been flitting around: I don’t really know myself as well as I feel I do. Or rather, I know the now-me, but I’ve realized I have very little idea about later-me. Maybe it’s a general perception issue - we feel like there’s a clearly defined, predictable narrative that guides our lives and our development b/ we mostly see the current daily increments that seem to flow in a foreseeable direction. But when I compare with a distant time point of my life and really try to remember that past-me - her mindset, her values, her goals - I’m kinda shocked at how different I am in some major aspects. Anyone else feel that way? For one thing, I didn’t use to be an outdoorsy person, wasn’t particularly into hiking, and probably spent more time geeking out on gadgets than not. Now - I live for the outdoors and being in nature. And *gasp* my computers and gadgets are years old, and I have no urge to buy new ones (which would’ve been preposterous to previous early adopter techy me). Those are a few examples of many, including the nomad in a wheeled house thing + deeper changes in outlook… There’s no good/bad or better/worse about either way of life. I just realize that past-me would never have predicted now-me and the life I’m living. And that means now-me is probably just as bad at trying to extrapolate to future-me. It’s more than ok though b/ I’ve decided that’s actually a pretty incredible thing. We are always growing into different people, sometimes subtly, sometimes in vastly different ways; and even if it is unpredictable, it is amazing that there can be so much flux and potential when you’re open to it. I truly don’t know what later-Linda will be like but I’m also pretty damn excited to keep journeying and find out.