This is the voice in your head saying “you’re fat, you’re not good enough, no one will love you, you’re worthless” hi, i’m depression.
This is the uncontrollable feeling that starts at your finger tips and erupts throughout your body, the weight on your chest making it harder and harder to breath and the thought of will this ever go away? Hi, i’m anxiety.
For once i’m going to stray away from my usual motivational bs, bc you know why? I need to show you my mind isn’t all gumdrops and lollipops and i’d appreciate it if you took the time to read.
As you all know, I’ve been on an extreme high, I have a fantastic job, great friends and I’d say a roughly healthy lifestyle (...now). We’ll since we’re all friends here let me tell you, Miss/Mr/Mrs (we ain’t sexist here) Mental Health decided to come give me a visit and let me tell you it wasn’t and isn’t the nicest. Now i’ve struggled in the past with mental health issues, but I can say I fought (and continue to fight) that battle everyday.
I guess this is a learning curve to say, no matter how well you’re doing, depression and anxiety and any mental health can pop up at anytime. I’ve taken the past week off work, to look after myself bc I come first. I’ve reached out to people (bc let me tell you, it’s a scary place to be in). I know my limits, my head was fuzzy, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t breath, my mind just stopped and I didn’t want to continue this time I was drowning and I needed a lifeline.
This post, I guess, is to reach out to people who are struggling, have struggled and to tell you to it’s okay to not be okay. We all have our ups and downs, I’m still not okay, but i’m better. Please reach out, don’t be a statistic.
This account for me is a safe haven, I can be upfront and honest and I feel like i’m not judged. I’m still not 100%, but it’s a work in progress.
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