A picture speaks a thousand words and unfortunately this is one to describe me today , especially tonight led awake at 4.30am with no one to talk to or even care , the saddest thing is when other people mention they have MH issues they shy away and never want to talk about it , either that or they completely ignore it.
Instagram probably isn’t the best place for these #relapse episodes , but I’d rather not use tumblr I’d say that’s a lot harder to connect with people.
Depression and to some extent, anxiety are no stranger to me and often my character is misjudged by others who have never had the same life experiences, I highly doubt anyone will even bother to read this but at least this gives me somewhere out there where I can vent.
Sometimes I feel life is too much it seems to simply treat me like shit.I would do anything for anyone and I feel like no one would do anything for me. I have no energy to do anything yet I can never sleep anymore. My mother has no idea about how hard Just living each day is , I just want to be happy and have a future to look forward to and that somehow my life will change for the better.
While I have more confidence and on the surface seem to be in a better place , little has changed in my life it would seem since my suicide attempt back in 2012 , sometimes I feel this life is a dystopia. To top it all off I recently learnt I have to pay a bill of £9,000 for tuition fees for next year otherwise I will fail university.
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