•TW• Really deep dark quote at the end :)
What I ate in a day food log:
Breakfast: The usual
Lunch: Cottage cheese and chicken salad sandwich with a tropical fruit juice
Dinner: Soy and honey sauce (challenge) chicken, sweet potato, egg and veggies.
Snack: Dragonfruit 🤤🤤🤤 with a choc brownie quest protein bar
Dessert: Tropical peach greek yogurt with coconut.
Today was the definition of rough. I really felt my ED taking control over me again. 😕 No morning snack again because my alarm decided not to go off and woke up late again 🙄 so since breakfast was close to lunch again, I just had lunch. Uggghhhh I'll try again tomorrow 😫.
Ana is definitely getting loud and she definitely wants her power and control back, feeding me the usual bullshit lies like, "you don't need to snack, you don't need dessert, you need to lose weight, let me back in and I'll help you be happy again"... absolute complete and utter LIES. I am not going to listen to you ED. I am not going to let you back in. I am stronger and more powerful than you will ever be.
"Your ED will never let you be merely thin. Your ED will never let you stop. Your ED wants you to be a skeleton, a skeleton. Pure bone, pure white, pure. No skin, no fat, no organs, no heart, no you. Your ED is an uncontrollable monster, It will drive you to death if you let it. Don't you dare let it. You're worth more. If you go with your ED, you will fail. There is nothing good down there. In the end, you will either die or recover. Choose wisely. If the disordered side of you got excited at the "pure, pure bone" part, you know your ED is fucking with your mind and heart. I hate it. I hate all of it. I hate eating disorders. They turn us into monsters. FUCK YOUR ED. Live the life, you were born to live." #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #edsurvivor #foodisnottheenemy #foodismedicine #fuelyourbody #loveyourbody #trustyourbody #whatiate #foodlog #fooddiary #recoveryfood #recoveryisworthit #anawontwin #fuckana #eatittobeatit #beatingana #anafighter #anawarrior #anasurvivor #foodphotography #foodie #healthyfood #healthybody