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“𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛, 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚒𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚎𝚏𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘, 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛, 𝚝𝚘𝚘. 𝚂𝚘 𝚒𝚝 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚜 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛, 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛-𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛.” -𝙰𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚑𝚊𝚖 𝙷𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚜
"𝙵𝚘𝚌𝚞𝚜 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕, 𝚎𝚞𝚙𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚌, 𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕, 𝚜𝚢𝚗𝚌𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌, 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞" -𝚄𝚗𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠𝚗
So you see it’s not so much that my life changed but instead that I had changed. I changed my mindset, I changed my hobbies, I changed my form of therapy, I changed how I looked at myself, I changed how I saw my worth, and found out all I was worthy of. Which took very much time sitting by myself. It took nursing my pain, my heartache, my guilt, my insecurities, and my shame by myself. It took endless writing, art, and tears. It took motivational speeches for me, by me. It took talking to myself every day, reminding myself I’m wonderful and loved. It took removing myself from toxic people and situations no matter who said I was selfish for doing so. Honestly, full disclosure, it took a bit of unabashed selfishness. So by improving myself, I improved my motivation. By improving my motivation, I improved my life.
No enlightened gift was brought to me with frills and bows. Enlightenment was not born from Instagram quotes and infrequent sage rituals. I wish it was that effortless. No, out of storms that raged within me, I found rich green foliage that had grew in a sea of darkness. That alone was nothing short of a profound miracle.
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