A little lion for you!
Today I am quite down and try to encourage myself somehow again... Everything moves so far into the distance... When should I ever go to a therapist, start my hormone therapy and have my top-surgery done?
I can't stand it here anyway... today I can't even cheer myself up, the many transitioning posts and encouragement don't help either. Not to mention that I can now write something motivating here... I feel like a broken record player anyway, saying again and again that we have to manage this and only hold out until we have reached the first milestone, the therapy, and our problems are treated... I was busy all day today with friends playing board games, but the bad feelings of this morning didn't get any better... The dysphoria and the associated feelings of guilt are simply getting worse and worse... Why don't I just be the daughter they think they have? I am so terribly tired... I just want to lie down and sleep forever... ~Lucas ———————————————————