Today was one of those days that I just kept thinking "this is my circus and those are MY monkeys". The kids somehow tag teamed so that while I helped/disciplined/loved on one kid the other one would proceed to lose his mind. It was a hard Mom day. Thankfully my husband was home a few hours this afternoon that I was able to take a nap!
But can I tell you how blessed I feel that with a teething baby who has me up all hours of the night (hubby works nights so he misses out), battling kids all day and making meals and doing crafts with the kids for Christmas... I was able to forget that I got my period today!! I forgot that I am nine weeks out from an operation that turned my life upside. I just Mommed today! And dang Momming is hard and yes it would be nice to just sit and wallow in my misery of first day menstrual cycle. But the fact that we made it through the day and I actually did the day... I made breakfast, did laundry, dishes, helped shovel shingles out of the yard, parented and took many moments for snuggles and loves, made lunch, took a nap, made dinner, made candles with the kids, bathed said crazy kids and got them to bed ... I'm not dead! I mean I'm tired but writing all that out I think I'm allowed that!
God's grace has been so so real this past year to me. He gives grace and then gives more grace and I know for a fact that's the only way that we've made it through this year in one piece!