To my future self, be it the version of me in 5 hours, days, months, or years—remember this feeling. You feel like you’re drowning, and you are, but revel in this fight. In this battle of willpower. When all is said and done you’ll not remember it as drowning, but as learning to swim. You’ll say, “I fought, I survived.” And never regret it! Remember that the choices you’ve made were for your future wellbeing. You’re not content with, well, contentedness. Or complacency. Remember that you could have been comfortable but instead chose to be alive. You could have been okay but you chose to pursue joy, and all of the intense, hard emotions that go along with it. You chose to pursue your heart, and soul, and passion so that you can look back on your life fondly rather than wallowing in regret and “what if?” Remember that however deep the water feels now, that you have survived worse and will continue to do so. That joy and freedom and true happiness are made so much sweeter because of the hardships we’re able to compare them to.
So, swim. Enjoy the restfulness of the shore when you get to one, but never let comfort kill your love for adventure, thirst for knowledge, or fiery passion.