Why i always wanted to be a monk?
Here's my thought,
As a human being, i thought having all i want is the way to bring happiness. Despite the fact the more we want, the more we want more. All attachments to our mind, either love, greed, and anger.. Once it attached to our mind, it brings sudden a long term suffering. The past is haunting me, love brings fear, fear to lose fear don't get the things we love.
In Buddhist they are taught to let go all attachments to our mind that they called "mind objects". They said "the less we attach to our mind, the less suffering we will feel". Which i exactly understand it's not piece of cake to do it.. But.. hey..! It's been a year i implemented to myself and all i can tell is I'm feeling good😌
People asked me "are you mad?" and he also asked me "are you sure?"
Well.. I know i couldn't be a monk, it's really really tough, just like some women considering to be a nun, or Rabe'a Al-adiwiyah who spend her lifetime to serve god. So i just wanna be myself, do what i believe, do what makes me happy and spread the positivity.. ❤️❤️❤️