While I've been consistently hitting the gym and doing yoga, always paying close attention to what and how much I eat, it recently came to my attention that (despite my best efforts) my #mentalhealth has been suffering.
I'm currently on a different journey than my usual. #Onederland is ever on my mind, and still a big goal for me, and right now I need to work on some mental and emotional things that may be standing in the way of that goal, and my ultimate goal to #BeABetterHuman 💕🕉 I have completely #quitsmoking (minus 2 small slip ups😸) as of January 11th. I have put the other #badhabits in my life like #drinking and eating #sugar and #dairy into a category of #moderation that I'm more #satisfied with. That's been a lot of work, and has opened some old wounds.
I've always been open that I struggle with #mentalillness like #depression and #anxiety and lately, with the varying levels of social climate I've been facing, I have been struggling with #suicidalideation as well.
No, this is not a cry for help. Not really. 😅 I'm addressing it, currently, to the best of my ability, And *I Do* have *some* help. Suicidal ideation is a heavy burden to carry. We could all use more help!
I need you (whoever you are, reading this) to know that seeking out help isn't really enough for some of us. There are some of us with barren support systems that physically CANNOT make themselves ask for help from the people who will help them, because of mental illnesses. There are people, like me, with children or other dependents, that actually can not be hospitalized despite *really* wanting and needing that rest and time to focus inward.
It's so much easier to ask family to help when you fear asking (sometimes, sometimes there is no "easier"), and family is often not reliable. This diagram is an old one, but it's helpful. If you have friends with mental illness and you suspect they may be coming to crisis, this guide can help you identify the behaviors. Don't panic, don't pry: if you have the time, offer to help them take some things off of their plate. If you don't, tell someone who does, someone who cares, and do your best to protect that person's dignity. 💕