Giving thanks before thanksgiving for the craziness that is my new normal.
I’ve barely been on social media lately, and this time it hasn’t been by choice. Every day has been packed with constant movement. Taking care of four elderly family members, working on client projects and being a mom has been overwhelming; and I’ve been struggling. Last week I gave myself a health scare when I couldn’t breathe well for over 3 hours. I’m not used to being out of control, despite co-managing ten people’s lives at all times. This past three weeks has been intense and has shown me that I really need to be better at scheduling time for myself. There just doesn’t seem to be any left. The hardest thing has been making sure that my work doesn’t fall behind due to other people pushing my schedule around, and not feeling guilty for standing up for my work time. If I want my business to do well, to exist, this is paramount. Why is it that when we get busy in one arena of life, all the others seem to go on high alert? I’m writing this now from the waiting room of a doctor’s office, just further proof that time management is an issue.
So what’s keeping me going right now? Faith and thankfullness. I have faith that this will pass, I will learn to manage, others will need less, and that’s what brings me to the thankfullness. I’m thankful for my elderly relatives. Every day with them in a blessing. At 77, 80, 89 and 93, they have been there for me at every step and moment that I needed them even before I was born, and I’ll always want to be there for them. I don’t know where I would be without them. I’m thankful for my little family, parenting and being a partner is hard, but 14 and 2 years in, we’re always working on being better, and haven’t considered giving up on being a family. I’m thankful for the rest of my tribe, my family and friends who fill my heart with love and laughter when I need it and encourage me to go on with this crazy adventure.