My heart. No longer broken, but the healing leaves scars. They're tough for a time after the wound first heals, and then as time goes on they soften up and start to forget the trauma that was done there. But scars never really go away. It's funny how they can leave you numb in some places and extra sensitive in others. Always there as a reminder of how fragile our bodies are, and how strong they can be.
I pray your scars make your heart strong, but not hard. Sensitive to your needs and the needs of others, but not sore and wounded. Grateful for the grace that is given to you, not bitter for the hand you've been dealt. ❤
2 years ago: 10 days ago my doctor told me I had cancer. "It's aggressive", he said. "We need to do surgery right away, then you will do chemo and radiation, and it has a 50% chance of coming back." He showed me the images, said he was certain. There aren't words to explain what that feels like. I called my mom and sobbed the words out. I told my sister and a few friends until I just couldn't bear to say it again. But the prayers that were said for me. The hundreds of voices that were lifted on my behalf. Many of those people didn't even know me, but they believed what I believed. God could heal me.
3 days ago my doctor called. He had presented my case to the Tumor Board at Mayo Clinic and another physician suggested that maybe this isn't cancer - run one more test. "Don't get your hopes up. The chances are small, but we will take biopsies and confirm what I suspect. Then we will proceed with surgery." 2 days ago I went in for one more test. I laid a hand over my abdomen and asked one last time for my miracle. As I woke up, "There was no mass or tumor. I couldn't find anything suspicious. I took a few biopsies, but the preliminary findings look good!" I cried and told him how many people were praying this would happen.
Yesterday my surgeon called. "I think you've already heard the news, but just to make it official - the biopsies came back negative. I'm calling to tell you your surgery has been cancelled." I could hear the disbelief in his voice, the confusion. The tumor was there before, now it is not.
God healed me! ⬇️