On October 2nd thanks to the beautiful @ I got to go to my first @ gig. It was honestly mind blowing and I'm so excited to see the boys again in January 💕 but something else happened that night, I met two people who have changed my life and who I now call my family. @ and @. They were sweet enough to let me line with them and we stayed by eachother, looking after eachother for the full gig. During the show Remington jumped into the crowd and Lauren was sweet enough to hold me up even though she didn't know me. Our friendship has grown stronger and stronger as the weeks have went by and after years of feeling down they have put smiles on my face and made me laugh when others can't.
The only thing that upsets me is the hate. The hate that my two best friends who are pretty much family to me get. It unreal and people like them with such kind hearts don't deserve that. They both calmed me down from a panic attack at palaye not even knowing who I was, you don't get people everyday who are that kind and caring just because they are.
They are both at work right now and as soon as they both get home they always message me asking how I am and it always brightens up my day 💕 I love both of them with all my heart and I feel this is the best way to show my love to them because I can't be with them till January 💜
Kim ( my Sebastian) you look after me like I'm your own blood. You always have the sweetest things to say to me in times of darkness and I could honestly laugh and chat too you all day till the end of time.
Lauren my sweet darling , my quite cupcake 💕 I love how protective you were at palaye and we didn't even know eachother and your one line savage banter gets me every time.
I love you both and remember to stay strong, you are here for a reason. The void can sometimes seem welcoming but I promise you your much more needed here 💕