Keep your eyes ahead. That's my life philosophy these days. Adopting that did not come easy. I was always one of those should've, could've, would've kind of people. The ones that dwell in the past or reach for some unattainable future happiness. Emotional well-being simply doesn't exist in what's to come. It can only be created in the present. It also disappears in the same exact moment, thousands of times a day. Just like that it flutters away without you even noticing, until you call it back with humble gratitude.
Some days it feels like I learn this game of life so very slowly. Regression abounds and leaning back into old ways happens so easily. Often I find myself beating me up for mistakes I've made like wasting time when I should be working, or getting angry and frustrated that things aren't working like they're supposed to when I have an editing deadline (goddamn technology). Then I remember that feeling these things does absolutely nothing for me in the first place. Feeling disappointed in my work ethic only adds to what I was down about in the first place, so there's no point in it! Slowly and methodically I am unlearning my bad habits, and replacing them with ones that make me better. It's not the easiest of processes, dissecting and scrutinizing every fiber of your being, but in the end it will serve you unlike anything else. What a funny little paradox life can be, constantly flipping reality on your head, leaving you the opportunity to grow amongst the chaos.