My take on . A change in the way you see is more important to me than a change in the way you look. Back in 2009 (even until my 25 y.o) I invested my self, time and hopes too much on other people but myself that I forgot my self worth. All I cared about was spending time with the person I was in relationship with or with my friends. That was the dumbest years of my life, I didnt have personal goals, or maybe my goals were dependent on people. I didn't chase my dreams, didn't learn new skills, I can say that my college years are the most wasteful time in my life.
Depending your hopes on others are dangerous, especially on things that can easily leave you. To be left, let down, betrayed does hurt, but I understand that I cant blame people for their decisions, it's their rights. There must be something that needed to be evaluated about the way I manage my feelings and the way I lived my life.
When I was little, I was an ambitious little girl with hopes and excitement about learning new things and without I realized, that person was slowly disappearing. I realized I had to bring that person back.
I really felt like I was having an awakening from a very long useless dream. Since then, I've been very very hyperactive, my mind is restless. I've tried so many things and I want to keep trying and experiencing new things. All I care about right now is mainly my personal growth and how to earn money to achieve the life that I want.
I pursue back to my childhood dreams, I've always liked art and creative stuff. And I have to find a way how I can relate my creative dreams with something that's demanded in this era of technology and internet.
Looking back in these two years, I feel I've grown a lot than 8 years before that. I may not have achieved all the things I want to be/have, but I am on my way and everybody has to start somewhere.
People can leave me anytime they want. My skills dont. My skills will follow whereever I go, and my skills can take me to places.