Did anyone else start on some sort of self care, or recovery journey - and like, along the way get really overwhelmed and burnt out on how much fucking work it is?🤯
Burnt out maybe isn't the right word - but I used to believe that I'd just like, start trying to fix my shit, then I'd wake up one morning and fully self aware and actualized. That it would just happen by some virtue of me trying.🛠
As someone who didn't care about themselves very much, finding the willpower to continue pushing and working on myself has been hard. It's not something that you wake up with, it's a process you work on.
For me, I start working on a belief or habit or idea, and then if it fails - I have to stop myself from shame spiraling. Then I have to look at the failure, get to the understanding that it's not representative of my self worth, examine what happened, and then try again. It's a process. It's a practice. And you know what? I know it's going to make this permanent.