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darthnidarb

for all those who dm me or message me on tumblr and whatnot here you go- long post time. no I do not blur or edit my scars on any of my photos at all. this is how they have always looked at almost 6 years healed. yea I get dysphoric like anyone else sometimes, but I’ll take these scars over those moobs any day of the week! for those who asked me how did I take care of my scars soOoOOo well- imma get real with you right friggn now- listen to your damn surgeon! srsly. fckn listen to them, don’t lift weights for 6-8 months (or longer), DONT go in the sun for a year or do any of that shit. i’m dead srs. i’m a surfer, you kno how hard that shit was for me? HARD (been surfing since I was a grom). just don’t do it. i didn’t even lift my arms over my head past 9 months unless I needed to, I know it sounds silly but I paid good money for this chest and I’m sorry but I didn’t want any stretched scarring or anything like that. i didn’t use any scar creams or expensive healing ointments or CBD things. i’m sure all those will benefit and work! but that’s what I did and wanted to share since I kept getting asked :) so there ya go my skittles. 💕 • • • #austin #goodvibes #transsexual #ftm #trans #transgender #transisbeautiful #atx #femaletomale #guyswithtattoos #selfmade #htr #vitamint #transandproud #tattoos #lgbtq #transguy #transtion #transmenofig #drpeterraphael #peterraphael #teamraphael #planotexas #drraphael #topsurgerypostop #topsurgery #postop #scars

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leezandro.gael

It’s been 4 weeks since surgery and I’m completely in LOVE with my new chest!! #topsurgerypostop #scarscanbebeautiful #freethenipps #transgender #ftm #transmasculine #transmale #peterraphael #transboys #topsurgery #topsurgeryftm

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beratkaraman12

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homofeline

Today as I try to battle the anxiety of giving myself my 153rd shot of testosterone, I look at myself in the mirror and try and remember that if it wasn’t for this magical hormone I wouldn’t be as happy with the way I look and feel as I am today. I remember battling eating disorder after cardio addiction to loose any curve on my body to appear more “manly”. It doesn’t have to be that hard and torturous. It’s just a shot, once a week, for the rest of my life. I can do this 💪 #thisiswhattranslookslike #transgender #trans #topsurgery #peterraphael #drraphael #teamraphael #transisbeautiful #shotday #tshot #testosterone #intramuscular #muscle #fitness #hormonereplacementtherapy #hrt

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darthnidarb

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seethestarsablaze

Seriously y’all @underwearexpert is always spoiling me with the best of the best, these Diesel trunks are 🙌🔥💯. Use my code STARSABLAZE and treat yourself to 55% off your first box! • • • • • #trans #transgender #ftm #femaletomale #transandproud #queer #lgbtq #prettyboy #thisiswhattranslookslike #transisbeautiful #transsexual #transition #vitamint #selfmade #transmodel #guyswithtattoos #transmenofig #hrt #transman #transguy #underwearexpert #topsurgery #drraphael #peterraphael #teamraphael

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homofeline

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wyattreidleo

I am one and a half year's post opt top surgery. I had the double incision mastectomy in Plano, TX with Dr. Peter Raphael. #ftm#update#peterraphael#topsurgery#femaletomale#transman#transmen#transmasculine#transboi#chest#fittrans#transbodybuilding

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seethestarsablaze

Someone told me today “wow you must really not know what you’re doing in the gym cause you don’t look any different” and you know, I have two thoughts about that... • 1- I never thought my body would look like this, or that I’d be 26 years old, or that I’d even get to be Chris. I never thought that I’d have a GOOD relationship with how I look, or that I’d look in the mirror and see someone that looked like me staring back. And 2- I haven’t made the progress I had expected I might in this time, but I’ve also made a lot of progress still! And that’s something I spend a lot of time trying to reinforce for myself, on my own, without commentary from others. Most importantly, this is just the beginning y’all, there’s so much time, so much to learn, so much to accomplish, and so much ahead of me. Sure, I wish I had my ideal body, but I’m a lot closer to it than I used to be, and because I’m not where I want to be yet I still have so much to look forward to. 💙 • Left: 20 years old, probably one of my worst body image periods and definitely not my best pre transition shape, pre-T, about 140lbs. Right: 26 years old, probably the best I’ve felt about my body, 3 years and 2 months on T, 1 year and 4 months post up, 150lbs. #transformationtuesday • • • • • #trans #transgender #ftm #femaletomale #transandproud #queer #lgbtq #prettyboy #thisiswhattranslookslike #transisbeautiful #transsexual #transition #vitamint #selfmade #transmodel #guyswithtattoos #transmenofig #hrt #transman #transguy #itgetsbetter #topsurgery #drraphael #teamraphael #peterraphael #transformation #progress #changes

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emmas_dad9

I feel like cheap. Stressed and cannot wait to be done with school. But very blessed also. #almostdone #allergies #nip #peterraphael #lovemywife

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taylorashton8

One year vs 1 week post-op top surgery. Still has happy as ever with this step I took and feeling confident in my body! It feels so great to look in the mirror and see who I always thought would be looking back. #ftmtransgender #peterraphael #transgender #ftm #transman #testosterone #thisiswhattranslookslike #lgbt #transandshirtless #transandproud

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seethestarsablaze

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seethestarsablaze

Read through the entirety of @andrewgibby’s “take me with you” last night — which is excerpts from their other poems in a convenient pocket-sized book, accompanied by illustrations. I love this idea that I can take doses of their art, wisdom, and encouragement in my bag wherever I go. Thank you for all that you do, your words are inspiration, your words are a lifeline.

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seethestarsablaze

Shot day 💉 (I do my shot super slow when I do it myself so this is sped up like 500x lol) bag by @stealthbrosco

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homofeline

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seethestarsablaze

Every person is in transition around you, in some capacity. Sure, some of us from one gender to another, but who isn’t on the path from one place to the next, on a journey from one identity to another, going from one moment to the following? We are all moving, changing, evolving, growing, and becoming.

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seethestarsablaze

#throwbackthursday left I was the tiniest I’ve ever been as an adult, age 18 barely 120lbs, confused, unhealthy, full of destructive habits and a lot of self hate. On the right I’m 25, coming up on 3 years on T, 1 year post op, 155 lbs (probably the heaviest I’ve ever been but also healthier than ever), working on my body and the relationship I have with it every day. 🙌

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seethestarsablaze

Pre top surgery and especially pre transition I was never comfortable wearing gym shirts like this, made of like dry fit clingy material. But now I can’t get enough of them! It’s amazing to finally feel comfortable in clothes I never could see myself in before. 🙌

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seethestarsablaze

#transformationtuesday swipe ➡️ for changes. Pic 1: age 19, pre-t. Pic 2: age 25, 2 Years 9 months on T.

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seethestarsablaze

Post chest day, gonna upload a short vlog of a fairly typical chest routine for me to my YouTube 🏋🏻‍♂️ also I can’t tell you how grateful I am to finally feel comfortable showering in the men’s locker room. 🙏🏼

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seethestarsablaze

“You have been assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved.” 🏔

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wyattreidleo

Hope you all have a great selfie Sunday, or a regular Sunday! Whichever! Cheers! #ftm#femaletomale#transmale#transman#transguy#transmasculine#polyamory#selfmade#testosterone#lgbtq#transition#love#selflove#selfie#coffee#morningmug#coffemug#namaste#topsurgery#peterraphael

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seethestarsablaze

Day 1 on T vs Day 1001. #transformationtuesday (swipe for body changes!)

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seethestarsablaze

7 years later and still awkwardly touching my head in selfies 🙆🏻‍♂️ #transformationtuesday

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seethestarsablaze

The lighting in our hotel room this weekend was pretty perfect honestly. 💡

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seethestarsablaze

My tattoos are (for the most part) reminders to myself to be positive, to keep my head up: my ribs say, “only in the darkness can you see the stars ablaze” a reminder that life can be dark but there’s always light to be found. My left forearm bears a compass that points to my heart reminding me to follow that whenever I’m lost. The wave on my left arm a reminder that life comes and goes in waves, so try to go with the flow. My left side has a heart with two arrows that says “not you” an ode to exes, because my love isn’t theirs anymore, gotten at a time that my love for myself needed to be made a priority. there’s an arrow on my calf reminding me that arrows can only propel forward once they’re drawn back. My thighs show my t-date and the phrase “on my way” because this life is a journey and I’m not done yet, but I’m getting where I need to be. My latest: “it hurts to become,” because this hasn’t been easy and I’ve endured a lot of pain, but becoming myself and owning that is something I wear proudly on my chest. I try to remember that as long as I love me, as long as I live my truth, nobody else’s opinion matters.

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seethestarsablaze

Idk y’all. New underwear are so nice. Use the code STARSABLAZE for 55% off your first box at @underwearexpert

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seethestarsablaze

I have been having the most annoying week, but today my @underwearexpert box came and my spirits were lifted significantly! Who doesn’t love getting presents every month? And who doesn’t love the feel and fit of new boxers?? If you use my code STARSABLAZE you'll get 55% off your first month-- that's a pretty good excuse to try this subscription out For yourself 🤙🏽 ((Also who wants to come be my photographer cause these low quality selfies are not cutting it)) 😪

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seethestarsablaze

I came out for the first time when I was 18 years old. Everybody who knew me wasn't all that surprised, they knew I had had girlfriends ("in secret" though not so inconspicuously because as I said, everybody knew). I had always been a tomboy growing up, surrounded by guy friends, rough and rowdy with my twin who was the same way my mom would always complain that we weren't the little girls she had hoped for when we'd fight her on school picture day when she would make us wear dresses and curl our hair. In college I was very out and proud. I was well-liked, happy-ish, with lots of friends and girlfriends and as confident as I'd ever been -- though still weighed down by SOMETHING I couldn't ever quite shake. I convinced myself that this was how all people felt about their bodies, their identity, and their gender, and that I could just DEAL WITH IT. Then one day I came across some trans resources and realized I didn't have to just DEAL and that I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO. I finally saw a light at the end of my tunnel, and knew that my future would hold a transition that would hopefully help me find my truth. The hardest coming out I've ever had to do was to myself. It would take me about 3 years to finally convince myself that this path was one worth taking, that it would be worth risking relationships, friendships, and society's perception of me. It was hard to reconcile losing my identity as a queer woman, I feared losing my community that I had worked so hard to create and immerse myself in, and I worried that maybe this wouldn't be the solution I needed. Transition didn't solve my every problem, don't get me wrong, but I haven't regretted a single moment of this journey since I first proclaimed myself as Chris. It took me years to accept that I was him, but I realized worrying about "what if" and settling for what is was no way whatsoever to live my life, and so I took a plunge. Continued in comments 👇🏽

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seethestarsablaze

I remember being that person on the left-- my girlfriend back then forbade me from chopping my hair off, told me to stop "playing a boy", and so when she broke up with me i immediately cut my hair in an act of defiance but also one of freedom. It was shortly after this that I'd watch my first transition video (by @skylarkergil) and a lot of things he said would resonate with me. I felt less alone, still pretty terrified, but like I might have some clue how to finally be me, and the hope that I could finally love myself. Fast forward 7 years and I'm still pretty clueless, some things still scare me, but I can say with certainty that I know who I am and I'm on my way. #transformationtuesday

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seethestarsablaze

Have you tried out @underwearexpert yet?? If you use my code STARSABLAZE you'll get 55% off your first month-- that's a pretty good excuse to try this subscription out. It's probably time you upgraded your underwear drawer, your booty deserves it 👀

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seethestarsablaze

#throwbackthursday swipe for the #glowup 💪🏽 pic 1: pre-t, pic 2: 2.5 years on T 💉

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seethestarsablaze

This was never a bad body, but it sure feels a lot more like home these days. [age 18, pre-T vs. age 25, 2.5 years on T] #transformationtuesday

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seethestarsablaze

Good moooooorning. 🌞

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hayden_blessed

Day four of recovery. Feeling better slowly. Have a couch which stinks but just resting. There is itching which is a good sign. Def a huge thank you to my wife @ohsweetwhit for taking care of me and handling my needy butt! Couldn't have done this with out you babe. I love you! #TopSurgery #FTM #transgender #transisbeautiful #peterraphael #LoveTheProcess #HaydenEge #TransofIG #LGBT #Texas #FortWorth #MyJourney 🔪💉💯👌🏼👍🏼

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seethestarsablaze

Dear younger Chris: life has gotten so much better, thanks for being so strong and patient. 💙#throwbackthursday

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hayden_blessed

Day 2 Recovery. Sore & swollen. Got a glimpse this morning at my appointment this morning. Looking good! #HaydenEge #peterraphael #TopSurgery #FTM #Transgender #TransIsBeautiful #LGBT #LoveTheProcess #VitaminT #TransOfIG #FTMPride #MyJourney 🔪👌🏼💯💉👱🏼🚹

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seethestarsablaze

Would it really be #transformationtuesday if I didn't post a shirtless comparison? Better not risk it. 🤷🏻‍♂️ (Left:Age 18, pre t, pre top surgery. Right: age 25, 2.5 years on T, 8 months post op)

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seethestarsablaze

"Only in the darkness can you see the stars ablaze" -- Trevor hall ✨ When life gets me down it's nothing a comfy pair of @rodeohs and some good music can't fix. 🙌

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seethestarsablaze

#flashbackfriday + #flexfriday = progress maybe? [pre-t to 2.5 years on T)

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seethestarsablaze

🏖seeking sunshine and an excuse to wear no shirt anywhere I go 😬

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seethestarsablaze

Dreaming of relaxing river days during this dreary Monday. 🌧

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homofeline

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seethestarsablaze

@rodeohs are always the right choice.

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seethestarsablaze

Slowly crossing things off my post op bucket list. It's amazing how freeing it feels to finally own this body of mine, I'm loving every second of it. 🙏🏼 📸: @alexiss.47

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seethestarsablaze

Like night and day 🌓 left: 18, right: 25. #transformationtuesday

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seethestarsablaze

Hanging in my @rodeohs 🌊

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seethestarsablaze

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seethestarsablaze

I am a work in progress, more than I was yesterday, but still less than I'll be tomorrow. (Feat @rodeohs long length stp packing trunks).

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seethestarsablaze

Day 1 vs Day 848 on testosterone. Sometimes I think I haven't changed at all, I can't see the progress as it happens day to day, and I get frustrated thinking I'll never get where I wanna be -- then I put two pictures like this together and am amazed at the strides I've made and the growth I've experienced. What a journey. 🌟 #transformationtuesday

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seethestarsablaze

Can I catch a break soon? Please?

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seethestarsablaze

#throwbackthursday with @dingus500. Left is the day we met and right was this last month when we got to chill at the lake together. 🤙🏽 we've grown up a little 👀

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homofeline

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seethestarsablaze

Brunching with a brunch... I mean bunch... of queers. 🌈

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seethestarsablaze

I am a work in progress, more than I was yesterday, but still less than I'll be tomorrow. (Age 18 vs. age 25 #flashbackfriday)

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seethestarsablaze

Got all these haters trying to drag me down and I'm just spending time working on myself and feeling (and looking) better than ever. 💁🏻‍♂️

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seethestarsablaze

He might be stronger physically than she was, but she was strong enough to never give up so that he could get where he is today. #transformationtuesday #grateful

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darthnidarb

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