. "There are people less qualified than you doing the things you want to do, simply because they decided to believe in themselves and go for it." It's the most frustrating thing. I always find that people that know less are almost completely oblivious to how much they don't know. They are doing less over thinking and more just diving in with confidence. I find the dumbest person in the room always has the most to say while the smarter people are too busy fact checking themselves.
Not to knock anyone down but I look around and see so many expressionless models with no range just zooming on past me. Usually their images are just more sexually explicit which is fine, I'll happily stay in my lane. Other times, I couldn't tell you why it's being celebrated at all (Yes, I sound like a bitter bitch. I know. But it's true!!). In their defense, it could also be that maybe I'm not as good of a model as I give myself credit for or I just haven't made the proper contacts. Anything, really. But sometimes it makes me doubt myself and worry if I'm doing something wrong that's holding me back. I even wonder if really have a shot at modeling as a full time career sometimes. As much as I don't care to be part of the instagram popularity contest, it does play a role in the opportunities that become available to you so I bounce back and forth between "who fucking cares?" and "When are you going to catch up?" lol
Sometimes I think it's just that I need more confidence. It look me more than a year to even start calling myself a model.
Stranger: "so you're a model"
me: No, I just collaborate and take picrures with a lot of talented people."
Stranger: So, you're a model"
Me: " I Guess." Meanwhile there are people out here taking mirror selfies and announcing to the world about their modeling career. I need to be much more like people like that or at least find the happy medium so I don't come off as completely delusional. But sometimes you just have to strongly believe in some things and think them into existence!
Anyway, here I go again rambling. I hope you're all having a wonderful evening!