I‘ve come to the decision to pursue my life in a way that i‘ve always admired and that i already wanted to do for years but never felt mentally capable to stick to it. But by now i feel strong enough for this.
This may come surprising and to some this may even sound like a joke, but honestly, i couldn‘t care less about what anyone thinks. Only a few know that i’m not always having an easy time with myself and this is something that i feel is the right choice for me to do to finally win this everlasting fight within me.
When i‘m reflecting the last few years, i come to the conclusion that the person that i‘ve always hated was not myself, but the person that has let substance take control and didn‘t allow me to be myself. I know that i‘m not the worst person, but i feel ashamed and disappointed that during those years i‘ve disappointed myself and the people i love by not being myself and let substance lead me into bad decisions.
And i‘m tired of hating myself, i‘m tired of not being myself, i‘m tired of disappointing myself and the people i love and i‘m tired of escaping myself into a false reality lead by substance like i did the last years through alcohol, cigarettes and marihuana.
I want to face reality, face myself and live my life with a clear mind through all the ups and downs. Because for myself substance has done me more harm than it has helped me to face any of my problems, instead it has created more problems than i could handle. So before leading myself into more misery and more depression, i decided to change my direction and to save myself.
I just want to finally live the life i always wanted to: A life with peace to myself and my environment.
With these words being said, it‘s time to spin some Minor Threat right now.
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