35 years ago, today, my half-sister was born with a fatal health condition. She was born to a mother that didn't want to hold her, look at her, nor take any responsibility for her. I've read her file many times over, and it’s a sad state that I can never fully understand.
I think of my half-sister as I also think of her biological father, a man I have met and communicated with many times. This same man has the same story as my biological father. Our births and abandonment's occurred during their relationships, and it took almost 4 decades to uncover. I have celebrated her life with dignity over the last two years, and this year, I felt a turn. There's no spin to put on this story, her story, or my biological mother. Yes, one can argue many points in that my biological mother was raised this way or that way and was raised with chaos, toxicity, poverty and a normalized lack of education. However, it doesn't hold enough weight for me. At best, I have found neutral ground.
I spent the day with Emil and Katherine. I thought of my half-sister and her biological father. I thought of how these men were both cheated, betrayed and lied to. I thought of how their lives have been impacted, as well as ours, and I decided to do a very quiet heart release in a beautiful beach. I also decided to release this celebration as I grasp each year with what to celebrate. It's hard to acknowledge and be thankful that she was born when she arrived so ill, with no chance of living due to my biological mother's decisions. None of this will ever make sense.
I'll never forget her life, but I'll be finding quiet ways to incorporate her life, while celebrating living with my family.
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